Journaling Self Discovery Challenge Day 1

What would you be doing if money wasn’t an issue? 

So I pondered this question and I swear I go back and forth with the answer. I mean at first I thought well if I am absolutely honest with myself I would just do nothing. If money isn't an issue then I could be found on a beach relaxing drinking a banana margaritas (yes that's a thing). 

But of course I feel guilt for wanting to do nothing. How does lounging on the beach help anyone? It doesn't really help me. And if money isn't an issue, wouldn't we be better equipped to help others? 

I recently found out about Signature Strengths and one of mine happens to be love of learning. Call me a nerd, geek, whatever, I have a vast knowledge of pop culture, and knowledge of random facts (like if I see certain birds in the neighborhood I look them up by attributes and never forget it, so I can identify birds to the point that I really want to join the Audubon Society). AND even though most of us hate it, I enjoy professional developments (except the boring ones). I do indeed love learning at leisure. Since I have a bachelors and masters seems like a doctorate would be next... only I don't want a doctorate in education... I have been studying on my own the Science of Well-Being and I have an interest in Positive Psychology.  I actually decided to get a specialization in this science. Basically, it will certify that I learned about Positive Psychology, but I really think that it would be good to have a formal education in the science and use it in some way that could help people. I don't know how I expect to do this, but I hope that one day I am a person who people listen to about maintaining a positive outlook on life. Sometimes I get down on myself because I am not ALWAYS happy, I get sad, upset and depressed like anyone else, but I would love to share that realness/vulnerability with others. I might not even have to get a degree in Positive Psychology, to be a "guru" but it seems like that would make it legit. LOL!  

I could see myself traveling for both leisure and work, because I would be a motivational speaker. (Hopefully I would learn the skills to stop self sabotaging.)

If money isn't an issue I feel like I would be better equipped to help my sorority when we work on service projects. 

Also I would move to California... I would invite my mom and brother to move with me, of course they would get their own spot on my property and I would have a Maltese and a Yorkie.  ( I would name them Min and Jun for reasons) I would still have opportunities to lounge on a beach or just in my backyard and still get to drink banana margrita's.  

What wouldn't we do if Money wasn't an issue? I can put together a full list of things... to help others and myself.  Like have children, get a new smile (like veneers), take my boo to Hawaii (yes I would take them cause money ain't a thang), give to an organization of my choosing, adopt a child, and of course cosplay, etc etc etc.   
It's safe to say I would not have the same day job. 

30 Day Challenge: Day 23-30 Finish It!!!!

Ok so I didn’t keep up with this very well at all. I slipped up and the month is almost over. I have 8 days left of the challenge.  Since it is about to be 2020 I was thinking I will just go ahead and knock the whole challenge out in one shot... here we go!!!

Day 23: Something you crave
Ice... so apparently I was/am anemic and the symptom of that was the desire to chew/eat ice regularly. I had to have ice by 9am and continued thru the day. It was really bad, but since treating the anemia that desire is almost gone. I say almost because there are times that my brain says you should get ice but its not strong enough for me to actually get the ice. BUT I love having popsicles (Banana flavored) and I prefer ice water, and very cold drinks.  I use getting sick and having a fever as my excuse to get banana pops 😂.

Day 24: Three Books on the Shelf

Ok So The Rap Year book is very informative my brother actually skimmed it and went through songs listed for each year and I sang or rapped a part of about 95% of the songs. He isn’t into rap so it was a cool bonding moment.

The Great Gatsby is probably one of my favorite stories, I think I read it at least twice and I have watched both the 1974 version and Leo and Toby version. I love both. I think its safe to say this is my all time favorite “adult” story. (Even though I read it in high school) (My favorite kid book is Witches by Roald Dahl and Hatchet by Gary Paulsen)

Ok now JUN.K the books below are called “making books”. Basically these are picture books that show how he prepared for his albums. The first one on the left is the making book for his first Japanese album “Love and Hate” in the book you will find behind the scenes pics of his photo shoots or concert practice. The middle is his making book for his 2nd Japanese album Love Letter. And the last is the making book for his album No Shadow ( which is BY FAR the SEXIEST for reasons...nipples).

Day 25: What’s in your bag?
So I don’t always carry a purse or bag but when I do more than likely you are going to find my IPad, lipstick/gloss, and my giant planner. If I have a small bag then just make up and debit/credit cards. I use to have like 100 pens/highlighters/markers/colored pencils/ but I have stopped carry those things which is dumb because I almost always need a pen.

Day 26: What do you think of your friends?
Kass and Danielle: Hot Mamas Literally

Eylul: Genius Beauty (You can do anything just do it babe)

Rachel: Kingpin the Godmotha (Big pimping working crazy remember to take it easy)

Tonya: Warrior and Ear Lover (I will never get over that fact)

Alise: Spiritual Kpop Nurse (keep going)

Megan P.: The Calm to my Hype... silent busy bee... doing stuff and not being boastful... Lowkey mom

Tony Ray: Classy Lewd Gentleman/activist (fight the power naked)

D. Coney: 1:1  My Guy (in a Denzel voice)

Jazmin: Quiet wise beyond her years... a blessing

Tao: Globetrotter Bear and by globe I mean Seattle to China  

Jess: My school girl... Masters... Doctorate!!! I will always be here to support and indulge in that Taeckay lifestyle

Please get at me if you feel like you should be on this list... but these are the people I talk to either everyday or our relationship goes back several years to 10 years back maybe more....

Day 27: Why did you want to do this challenge?
I was trying to revitalize this blog overall. I get a little disappointed because even with the amount of followers I have on instagram I am not really getting views, but I guess blogs are kind of played, but I think that the vlog business is starting to get a little saturated in other words everyone wants to be a vlogger  and don’t get me wrong if you can produce bomb content then keep going I mean I have some FAVORITES like Chris Cantada Force  PLUS I know how much production goes into vlogging, like its not just recording off your phone and uploading, I mean most are using their phones but there is editing and other concerns... I having been around videographers and Chris I see the work and money they have to put into it because they have to have equipment. They also have a niche and quite honestly my niche is me. LOL... well that and Positivity.

Day 28: this year/ last year pics and compare

 Ok we sit on the cusp of 2020 but here are December 2018 and December 2019. Difference I have a weave in 2018 (looking to do that again actually) but my real hair continues to flourish. I continue to have dark circles that can be seen EVEN with filters. I continue to love black eyeliner and the color gray. 2018 and 2019 Dani loves Jun. K I am not sure which loves him more... I have a droopy eye... 😞 FML its only gonna get worst as I age.

Day 29: What have you learned over the month?
I failed at this challenge. It is very difficult for me to keep good habits because it is easier to be lazy. So I guess I need to write up some kind of routine and work on developing better habits.

Day 30: Favorite song...
This anti climatic, like all this philosophical stuff and we end with favorite song... well I guess I can be philosophical here too LOL. First I have to figure out which artist I want to draw from. There are several artists that have made an impact on my life....
2pm: Again and again (preferably the ballad version)
Jun. K (from 2pm): Think about you
Drake: Shot for Me
Michael Jackson: Another Part of Me
Marques Houston: How You Just Gon
Mariah Carey: Lover Boy

And what is ironic or iconic or crazy about these artists, the decade that is about to end was eventful for each,  2pm debuted in 2008 but I found them at the end of 2014 and was around for 3 Korean Comebacks and 3 Japanese comebacks.
2pm gives us Jun. K and I have been there for his solo records and have waited through his 2 years of mandatory service in ROKA.
Drake “debuted” in 2009 and was already on the radar, but that fandom crept up on me suddenly I am listening to him and Jun. K back to back (you can kinda blame Jun. K, but I was with Aubrey during those Degrassi days)
Michael Jackson: died in 2009 (every time I remember this fact it happens to me all over again) but in 2014 they released some never released music and of course they tried to re-kill him and his legacy in 2019...say what you want I won’t let Michael go....
Marques Houston: Has been an artist since 1993... his last two releases were 2010’s Mattress Music and 2014’s Famous. Even though he is into producing and directing movies, I can’t let this dude go....
Mariah: the best... do I even need to say anything... people try to say she is not hitting all those notes and the truth is there are times that it is like she needed a little more tea and honey and less wine but she still ended up with 19 #1s before the decade ended... what she did was made herself the Queen of Christmas...

BUT... 
My favorite song is: ADTOY

WHY??? Its how I found 2pm/Jun. K and right now Jun. K is everything... that is just the reality of my life right now LOL!!!  This song written by the great JYP is a classic and in a sleek/classic yet modern way expresses who they are as 2pm... beastly, sexy, performers giving us fierce and manly. With rap and VOCALS... Minjun kills period....

OK the Challenge is over are you ready for the next??? LOL!

30 Day Challenge: Day 19: Nickname explained...

Nickname?
I mean its Dani. BUT...

Dani D. started probably in my junior year of high school and carried on to college. I added Princess of Delaware to it because at the time there were like 3 students at Howard that admitted to being from Delaware. I wanted to stand out and sound as if I were “cool”. I used it as my stage name for the school radio. Unfortunately I was never really “cool” LOL. Regardless, I liked it and kept it. Through out the internet I use Princessofde as my “handle” (screen name). True story...if I were to ever be a rapper or singer (like really??) I would use Dani D. the Princess of DE. I would use Dani D. as my pin name.  There are no special stories about this nickname I am sorry. BUT...

I have another name that an aunt gave me and she would often use... and there is a better story.
When I was born, I was sick and so was my mom technically. So DAFB hospital shipped me via helicopter to Andrews Airforce Base Hospital to help me out. My mom unfortunately was in the hospital in Dover. My aunt went to Andrews to see me and exclaimed that I was a red head. This is funny because its not the typical red like an Irish woman or something, but brownish. From then on my aunt started calling me Strawberry Shortcake.

Actually I do have a Princess of DE story... remember a few blogs back I mentioned a time I had been in the hospital?  Well, I was in the hospital so long at Christiana that the nurses were referring to me as Princess, even though I had a Strawberry Shortcake blanket with me... speaking of... where is my blanket? 🤔

What is your nickname?

30 Day Challenge: Day 18 Plans/Goals/Dream

Dream: a cherished aspiration, ambition, or ideal.
Plan: a detailed proposal for doing or achieving something.
Goal: the end toward which effort is directed

I had to be extra... and look up the words because although we tend to use these words under the same meaning they are not the same things. BUT looking at the definitions I see how they all work together. You are also going to have another word added and that word might just be: work. 

Work: to produce a desired effect or result. 

So it looks like you have a dream, you make a plan, then work on that plan until you reach the goal which means you were able to bring your dream to fruition. 
WHAT IS THE DREAM?

Is a dream realistic or out of the world? If I say my dream is to meet Jun. K, is that ridiculous because he is “famous” (not to mention a 14hr plane trip away) and that seems far fetched? Should my dream be closer to what I actually do daily as in my dream is to be the best teacher that I can be, become the national teacher of the year, and work hard to help students meet scholastic goals? Would that be more credible because it seems less selfish and also more career oriented?
The movie Hook teaches us that adults forget about the magic they had in youth due to all the b*llsh*t that devours their life once they “grow up.” Since I am 35 going on 36 am I a grown up who must turn silly dreams into more adult appropriate “dreams.”  I think Hook is also trying to teach us to never forget the magic we once had, true it might not be as bright as it was when we were 6,but there is a little gleam of happy thoughts that enables us to fly when needed. In other words DREAM and keep BELIEVING in yourself. YOUR DREAMS aren’t SILLY. As long as you have breath you can make a dream a reality.
SO...
I can dream of meeting Jun. K and being the national teacher of the year (honestly I feel like the probability of that is lower than meeting Jun. K), but what will be important for both of the those goals are my plans and the work I put into making it happen to reach the outcome, which is the dream. Its a circle or cycle. 

ALSO sometimes its ok to be vocal about goals, but remember you only need positive pushes from people and not negative pushes. Talk to people you trust about your goal or keep it to yourself. That is not the normal advice given, some professionals say to talk with others about you goals, but honestly I wouldn’t talk to anyone unless they were a person who had vast knowledge about the dream/goal and ways of helping you plan for your dream/goal. In other words I better go talk to the head of the Jun. K fan club and learn a little MORE Korean.


JUST STAY POSITIVE and make sure you keep GOD involved.

30 Day Challenge: Day 17: Freaky Friday (Short FanFIc)

 

The challenge given was “Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why.”  My mind went to the movies Freaky Friday and Vice Versa. In these movies the kids mind swapped bodies with parents and parents switched with kids. That’s kind of strange and the point was to get both parties to see both view points, cause the reality is parents do not always see things from their kid’s  perspective and kids definitely can’t see their parent’s point of view. But this is for the day and its not necessarily to learn a lesson. Honestly I want to switch for selfish reasons. It should be obvious who I need to be for a day...

Whoever Jun. K calls his girlfriend OR whoever Drake calls his girlfriend or in his case “casual” friend. I don’t know Jun.K’s girlfriend although there have been some guesses... 😡, but we (the world) has been told that Drake’s current “friend” is Kylie Jenner. Not that I want to be in that Kardashian klan BUT I want to see Toronto and Drake’s mansion and his airplane. Not even gonna lie it all might sound basic but I do.

You think maybe I should be someone who could help change the world. Like be a White House “whistle blower” and help with the impeachment garbage. Listen broski blew the whistle on himself... and the republicans are still out here like this is a “witch-hunt.”  So no... I need to be selfish and see how I am going to transfer $100K from Kylie wait is she a billionaire? Ok like $300K from Kylie and like $300K from Drake and they can call charity and I will call it a gift. Then I would pay everything off, like the dreaded student loans, and any other debt I have accrued cause I am dumb and this house of OURS. Wait let’s not be crazy cause the government would be like, where did you get this money and I am not trying to deal with all that so what I would do is pay lump sums but not off completely, right pay lump sums like every so often. But in the mean time I am going to go to Korea and find the one I really love. Jun. K. LOL!!!  Every scheme leads me to Jun. K. That is probably not a good look though.
Wait... let me explain this a little more clearly.... let’s bullet point....

• First “freaky Friday” into Kylie Jenner
• Second go to her bank and transfer funds into Princessofde’s bank account
• Third holla at Drake like: ”you trying to come to Cali or can I come see you” (Imma say it seductively) you know me I would be like: “Aubrey bring your airplane and pick me up” (I just want to fly in this plane) I imagine myself like this on the phone being seductive like:   
  
• So once in Toronto I might YOLO because I only have 24hrs to be Kylie and I wasted almost 5 hours flying to Toronto, well he would be on the plane with me so... yeah um it’s Kylie’s body right? Mile High Club LMAO!!!!! 
• Now I am in Toronto like: “OMG, $300K of mine disappeared!!! Like real OH WOE IS ME, right I mean Kylie is a billionaire so any intelligent person would be like: “B**** um obviously you learned how to grow money on trees.” So I gotta play to his heartstrings like, *fake Jenner tears* OMG 😱 I am so a$$ out right now, how did this happen, what am I going to do? **side note: Obviously if I need $600K I could just have Kylie gift it to my account, but why wipe her out when Drake has a whole airplane and is not broke and needs to be a philanthropist too. Plus I kind of just want to see how whipped he can be** 
• So now Drake gives me this money and shows me Toronto and then I gotta get back to LA or DE before the clock strikes midnight or something so I can body swap again. 
• I am not sure if I have to “fix” the money but that’s what gangsters do and I am indeed a gangster at this point LOL 
• Complete payment transactions 
• Plan a trip to Korea 
• Sit at the cafe until... “oops, 죄송합니다, (I’m sorry.) 안녕하세요 (hello)... I have bumped into Kim Minjun aka Jun. K and obviously we will fall in love. 

LOL See a WHOLE plan to fall in love with the real bae and fix some other problems in my life LOL!!!! 

Win Wins all around... Kylie and Drake can become philanthropist (giving to the “poor”) and Minjun can finally be happy in love... no more Mr. No Love.... Mr. In SO MUCH LOVE!!!! LOL with his YOUNG FOREVER GIRL!!!!

And then one night while Minjun and I are in bed about to fall asleep Minjun will say: “Man I would love to do a collaboration with Drake.... and my eyes will pop open like:  😳  It will be time for Freaky Friday: the sequel LMAO!!! Cause I would do it again and this time brainwash Drake so that the only thing he would be thinking about is collaborating with Jun. K. Or I could end up swapping with Drake LOL 😂 Hahahahaha haha!!!!

30 Day Challenge: Day 16: Selfie...

So I renamed the challenge. It really said Another Picture of yourself. First of all, why? I’m gross... second like again when was this challenge created. This person was running out of ideas... anyway I have two pics for your observations. LOL! (Also why is this the narcissist challenge LOL)

*WARNING* Pic number one is called: I Woke Up Like This.

We both look crazy, I was just “waking” up. I say it like that because I really wake up at 6:30am or so and literally lay in bed for hours (if its the weekend or a day off) My pup hates selfies so he was already over it.

Now here is a selfie that looks great (because its filtered) and my hair is fixed. That’s better right LOL!! Still not fully happy as I am either a work in progress or forever gross. But my hair stay on fleek. My stylist slays and my hair just be laid!

There you are more pics of me... what kind of content is this??? I mean unless you stan me (do you, I am accepting fans LOL). I am no one important. Just a single spec. ed. teacher  or as I like to say Schoolmarm.

Can I tell you are secret? I want to try a dating site. I wonder why I feel it in spirit to date again? Maybe Jun. K is lowkey getting married and as Drake said:  “LORD knows LORD knows”  the devastation will be real (but for realz dating wouldn’t not stop that devastation)

Meh... I rather be devastated by Minjun’s whatever, than to go through the dating process.

I rather write a fanfic about dating a person. LOL!!! I don’t need more reality humans I need more reality dogs....

OK so the truth is the person I would date... is famous and younger... another person I would date is famous (not Drake or Minjun) and my age... any other person I would date lives in California, but aren’t “famous,” yet... LOL! I am about to date me and be free.  (How did I even get to this...)

30 Day Challenge: Day 15: Top 10 Shuffle

I don’t know when this challenge was created but, it said “put your iPod on shuffle and list the first 10 songs.”  I am like I have never owned an iPod but, I can play the game lol I am just gonna use my phone which is a galaxy 7 lol (Adulting taught me upgrades cost too much). Its gonna be like Drake, Drake, 2pm 2pm, Minjun lol ....

1.) Douse Wasureru Darou by Junho of 2pm
             -This song is so relaxing... Junho can be chill. Its Japanese.

Junho of 2pm

2.)비가와 (Rainy or rain is falling) by 2pm
          -Another chill song this is from the Go Crazy album, Taecyeon wrote/produced it.

3.) Go Crazy (Korean Version) by 2pm
         -Title track for 2pm’s 4th album, written/produced by Jun. K, it wasn’t my fave but its catchy af,  I appreciate it now lol.

4.)Go Crazy (Japanese version) by 2pm
         -Yeah that happened... I have 2 versions but there are like 25... Jun. K remixes like R.Kelly.

5.)No Music No Life by Jun. K (Featuring AI)
        -Jun. K is interesting when it comes to producing and writing, but he does what he wants and talks about what it important to him... I could see him wanting to name his child Music, just like Ray J named his baby melody.

6.) 있는 그대로 (As It Is) by LEL (Featuring Jun. K)
      -LEL is one of the homies he works with Jun. K all the time, especially on Jun. K’s albums or on 2pm’s like Jun. K actually shouts him out on a track. This particular song is very The Jacksons though check it out.

7.) Guilty Love by 2pm (Japanese track)
     - From their 2pm of 2pm album... the MV is HOT.... I dig the choreography

8.) Look What You’ve Done by Drake
       -From Drake’s Take Care album... sounds like Drake was a spoiled brat that would have temper tantrums from time to time... but this was dedicated to his grandmother who had passed in 2012, and I don’t listen to it very often because he used a message from her on the track and I get that grandparent bond so its kind of sad.

9.) Finesse by Drake
   -I rarely listen to this track from the Scorpion album, it comes on tonight and I am like OMG cause like the first line is: I want my baby to have your eyes... (I thought Jun. K though LOL)

10.) Until the End of Time by Justin Timberlake (Featuring Beyonce)
     -So this past summer I was working on a fanfic and I decided it needed a soundtrack and I put this song on that soundtrack. I feel like it my favorite fanfic written by me... but you know really it’s just the best until I write the next one LOL anyway this song came out in what?? 2006 (Black folks always liked the Beyonce version 😂)

I recommend you try one of these songs. Especially the MVs if they are available, like Guilty love has like 1-3 versions I think.  I feel like Until the End of Time is nostalgic. That Junho track is really sweet and I am not gonna lie I don’t know what he is saying but its so relaxing. His album  Souzou  Is   awesome. 10 of all 300 hundred songs is one like a skim of it though.... and HONESTLY no SERIOUSLY I talk about 2pm and Drake BUT my love of music is so deep, I am telling you right now... I can go from Judy Garland to Earth Wind and Fire to New Edition to The Spice Girls, toKim Hyun Joong to Mariah Carey to  Dru Hill to Michael Jackson (and low key all that alternative rock or like Emo rock I can probably groove to) 

30 Day Challenge: Day 14: Celebrity Crush

OK so ya girl pulled a cop out... smh REALLY Day 14 said to post a pic of your family, and although I love my family, I just didn’t know what to say... and I didn’t want to post just the pic with a small blurb, so I went to Pinterest and looked up other 30 day challenges. I found a basic challenge and looked at number 14 LOL!!!! It said celebrity crush and I just about died. CAUSE everyone should know my celebrity crush.... OMG just the simple fact that I am on this topic is exciting. Not to say that my family isn’t but you know I share my family the way that I want to share my family and this wasn’t it. Not tonight at least.

 SO CELEBRITY CRUSH!!!!!!  You already know... but you know what here is my time to explain (as if I haven’t already) what it is about him in particular that turned me from someone who was just a Kdrama lover to a Jun.K lover. Formerly known as Kim Junsu of 2pm he changed his name to Kim Minjun (2012). Now you know when I say Minjun I am talking about Jun. K. (When I go on tangents on facebook, and I use Minjun instead of Jun. K I figure people think I am talking about two different people.) 

I KNEW that if I got into Kpop it was over for me. I knew I needed to keep Kpop casual, because Kdrama had already become a great passion for me. Like I have made my mom a full fledge dramabean, I actually turned my co-worker into a dramabean, but curiosity killed the cat

right??? My gateway to KPOP... The Drama: Boys Over Flowers (currently on Netflix check it out... its a starter Drama).  Kim Hyun Joong is the dude with the “red” (Auburn) hair color. He was the Second lead in this Drama. I really liked him more than the Lead (Lee Min Ho). When I really like something I look for more of it. (Here is where the cat was killed).  Come to find out Kim Hyun Joong was really a Kpop artist. From a group called SS501(Double S 5-0-1). There was a time when Kim Hyun Joong was THE guy I was talking about all the time so much so I was in my garage teaching myself the dance to his song: Unbreakable. (I still know it.) I also watched his other dramas and learned all about SS501.  Anyway Kim Hyun Joong was known as the “Korean statue” like that’s how “perfect” they thought him to be... until an ex came out talking about ”he abused me and caused me to miscarriage“ and all that type of crazy.... he kind of ended up in a web of dishonor and pulled one of those let me quietly enlist. Well you know Chris Brown said it best cause “these h*es ain’t loyal”... I mean I still appreciate Kim Hyun Joong’s work ((as I still appreciate Chris Brown’s (when its reasonable)) but between all the drama and the 2 years of enlistment I had to let it go.


All of this is happening in 2014 by the way... I distinctly remember 2pm was on the Go Crazy World Tour in THE USA and I was reading the articles like “oh cool a Kpop group is touring in the states, good for them” and basically a year later I was in love. Biggest regret is not going to see them when they were in the states. But that would have been a lot of money spent on something I didn’t even know or like...yet.

If you know me and you have paid attention to my antics than you already should know the songs that lead me to love 2pm. If you said ADTOY than you love me. ALL DAY I THINK OF YOU. Watch the video... I am going to put it right here... go ahead I’ll wait...

    

Its not the famous butt dance, or the fact that each member is sexy in his own special way... but at 3:14 the voice hit my WHOLE ear. In order to know the person with the voice I had to learn how to identify each member. I googled 2pm and said “no not him” five times, process of elimination. I found Jun. K. As the song At Last says: “then the spell was cast.”  So honestly I started to like 2pm by default, I mean Jun. K has written and produced some of their songs so you gotta like the group. I specifically love him. Overall it started with his voice. I looked up his solo work and let me keep it real I wondered how a very black r&b voice came out of this Korean boy. OH to be a black person who loves Kpop... it makes you question your reasoning from time to time. You can say what you want the reality is Korea has appropriated the **** out of black culture (so has Japan but I really don’t have the time cause as usual Japan took it to another level) Korea tends to teeter between appreciation for black culture and/or black face (the “Its supposed to be a joke but its hurtful” kind) I am not blind nor dumb, I see it. Folks made a super ridiculous big deal about Kpop star Henry’s music video that featured Korean girls with cornrows, yet Koreans will do blackface faster than a drunk white American politician and be like shoulder shrugs.  Apparently, Jun. K put on black American swagger so hard, band mate Junho thought he was American. I imagine Minjun’s reply was like: “Nah I’m from Daegu.” And Junho’s face is: 

                This took a turn didn’t it. 

MAY BE I am bias, but to me Minjun is soulful, in other words he has said: (paraphasing) “When I wrote the song “With You” I was listening to a lot of Motown and the Jackson 5, so that sound influenced me.” For your listening and viewing pleasure: With You.

I view Jun. K as an overall artist because this dude wrote a song called: “ Mary Poppins” and proceeds to dance with an umbrella you know cause that’s what Mary Poppins has with her and that big bag. 

This guy did a music video for his “Love Letter” track and dressed as Charlie Chaplin in the music video. His music videos always have an underlying artistic metaphor. In other words he is ahead of his time. (And No Shadows is one of the best metaphorical MV in his catalogue). And then there was the time he found trap music.... You know usually you have an artist and like you kind of know what to expect because they are in a particular genre, with a particular sound. Jun. K was like nah, I want to sound like Gene Kelly, in a trap house at Motown, with the Perry Como band behind me and give it a Christmas feel. DON’T BELIEVE ME??? 

The point is I feel like I can bring Jun. K to the barbecue and the debutante ball. He is going to impress everyone with his rendition of “You and I” by Stevie Wonder who inspired him to make music. 

His voice is amazing to me (even if I can tell when his pitch is off or when he makes mistakes) and as any woman would I noticed other things

about him that are nice as well...

Keeping it real, this is only the tip of the iceberg when it comes to my appreciation for Jun. K. The fact of the matter is I let things get out of control once I was single. (Is Jun. K the rebound that never got away?) I don’t know if any of this makes sense... but I hope you walk away knowing that Jun. K is my celebrity crush or as we say in the kpop world he is my ultimate bias. I am a Hottest, (2pm’s fan base name.) Someone said: “You’re not a hottest if you only love one member.” I do love my 6, but can I keep it real, I would have NEVER even researched 2pm if I had never heard Jun.K’s voice. BUT I wonder if he would still have been my bias if I started from the debut of 2pm considering he had NO lyrics and very minimum ad libs.

Poor “Junsu” and his undocumented lyrics or lack thereof. I am glad to have found 2pm when I did and I am happy to be at 30 days to go until Jun. K’s enlistment is complete. I really hope he spent his free time writing songs so he can come out and drop like 10 solos during the 400 some days that Chansung and Junho have left until 2pm can be WHOLE again. Ok not 10 that is excessive, but like 2-3... please. LOL! (And maybe another musical, drama or movie.)  No pressure.

I stan Jun. K to pieces.

 

  Me and my Jun. K merch...
1.) Phone case 2.) No Love Hate 3.) No Shadow Tour Tee) 4.) Pan. K school girl tee 5.) No Shadow Tour Hoodie

30 Day Challenge: Day 13: Write A Letter To Someone Who Hurt You

Dear Fear-
You B*tch! I really need you to leave my life, right now. I don’t need you, especially since I know you are a lie from the devil. All you ever did was paralyze me from doing the things that I wanted to do, by scaring me into thinking I would be better off not taking a chance. Or by telling me I wasn’t good enough to be anything more...you were wrong. You know the last straw should have been the night before Morphicon 2018, when I started to have that fear of the unknown anxiety. But I was able to suck it up and make it! Then you tried again in when I was heading to Tennessee for Leadership with my sorority, luckily I was able to suck it up and put on my big girl pants AGAIN. Please leave me alone... can’t you see that I am not going to listen to you anymore. I am going to continue to follow my dreams and if I have to step out of my comfort zone I will because I have found that the more that I listen to my heart and do the things that I want the more I realize you are just holding me back. Every-time I step out on faith I grow because I accomplish whatever goal I set before myself. Now you want to put fear into my being with other worries, but guess what I will still defeat you as I have every-time in the past. A person can’t figure it out until they try. When you have a situation in front of you and you choose to try you come to a fork in your road and you are given more options, you choose again and there are more options. Yes it is scary, because we know that with good times comes bad times and there will be times when we choose an option and maybe things don’t work out in the first path, but guess what there is another path. You know I listen to Mariah Carey and you know she sang:
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

She also sang:

Up out my face boy
Up out my face boy
Up out my face, I break

You ain't never gonna feel this thing again
You gon' get a lot of calls 'cause I CC-ed all your friends (I break)
I ain't walking around all mopey and sad
Take a look at my bags baby (I break, when I break I break)

So basically I’m out of this emotionally abusive relationship... I am enough, and you are a joke. Don’t even trying messing with my fam or friends... vanish my dude!!! 

Sincerely, 

Princess of DE 

PS: 

30 Day Challenge: Day 12: Blogger?

How did I find Blogger? Why did I start one?

In the days of MySpace I use to blog regularly if not like 2 or 3 times a day. For whatever reason we all stopped using MySpace. I don’t know why. I just know we stopped. I tried other modes of blogging but nothing was quite like MySpace. I believe a gentleman that went to Howard started a blog around 2010 about his dating aspirations and the loss of his job due to the market changing. I am not even gonna say names because I found out he was put on front street by his ex and its messy.  At the time I admired his work and I was having a tough time with working a part-time job, without journalism being involved. I am sure I searched “Blog Spot” because in the web link it always said Blog.spot. Searching blog spot sent me to blogger. So when I started the blog I had time because I worked where I was usually not very busy and in front of a computer. I was fairly bored. I was also at an age when I thought, as I got older and starter to mature and mature things would start happening  in my life that I would want to share. (More info about that: https://princessofde.blogspot.com/2019/11/30-days-of-me-day-2-meaning-behind-name.html ) Unfortunately by the time those things started happening, I hadn’t kept up with the blog and decided to keep a lot to myself. For instance between 2014-2017 I was in a very good relationship... well good on my end (I have no complaints we just wanted two different things) ...and there were good times that I could have shared on this blog... (Would it be weird to share that now? 😂 ) At the time I shared pics on instagram, but I didn’t feel like I needed to go into details on a blog so I didn’t. I honestly thought I was going to get the ring, but I was wrong. In the mean time I started a Kpop/KDrama blog and I was posting on that one more. For example... my relationship ended at the end of February of 2017 and my favorite singer had a freak accident like the same night or something... I bet you I blogged about that... (Please view: https://kdramaseoul.blogspot.com/2017/02/jun-k-accident-during-d-3-of-6-nights.html )
I guess in the beginning I really wanted to show the life and times of the Princessofde, but as I would blog I really wanted to make sure I was promoting a positive message, which is why many posts were spiritual. I started this 30 day challenge to help me revitalize this blog... but I think it is going to help revitalize myself.  😂

30 Day Challenge: Day 9: Proud

 So Last Night I was working on Day 9 which was to discuss something that has happened in the past few days that made me proud... not only was I having a difficult time, I also was slightly disheartened  to even do this... I was also EXHAUSTED. Lately work is wiping me OUT! But below is the paragraph I was trying to work on.
(*** where I stopped last night)
Day 9: Proud
Honestly I am proud to be using the best practices when it comes to working with my students. In a meeting recently I felt supported because it was recognized that I was doing the right thing when dealing with particular behaviors in my classroom. I am not knew to tantrums and I also understand the only behavior I can control is my own. I feel like I was able to maintain my cool with kids and adults. I explained what techniques I had been using and I was praised for those techniques, and in a positive was given pointers for the future.  The whole thing goes a LONG way for me, because there are way too many times that as a teacher doing the best that I can for kiddos who are unique with special needs, and no one acknowledges the good I have brought to the table. Sometimes that is disheartening as you bust your butt for the school... because genuine praise can go a long way. Which is why we are supposed to be praising children all day. It should be a genuine praise.

***This is why I like to give compliments to others because you never know when your compliment just made someone’s day.  Also not gonna lie, as much as I try to remain cool, calm and collected, like totally nonchalant about stuff... being “highly effective” as a teacher is like getting an A+ and brings me pure joy. I mean if I’m going to do a thing I ought to be being the best... so if I can’t be Beyonce on stage, then I might as well be Beyonce in the classroom. And I am not being rewarded or awarded, but my kids (students) are better people because of me. At least that is what I see in them in the 2nd grade (sometimes first sometimes 3rd) during the school year.

30 Day Challenge: Day 8 Short Term Goal for the Month

It's the end of November and I have no idea what a goal could be... at first I thought should I just make one for December, but as I started this I thought about the SELF CARE that I need. The utterly "selfish" self-care that I need 🤣

We have 2 days left and then it's going to be Thanksgiving Break. I am thinking that I need to have a Historical Chinese/Korean movie fest ALONE. So maybe every night (and morning) while I am on break I can watch one or two of these films each day. OR I can binge a Kdrama or maybe even a Chinese Historical Drama... I really want to watch one where someone is like a witch or goblin or something.  Whichever I really need it to be a historical movie or drama. I just need a king or queen or concubine or a king's special general... Someone needs forbidden love. And this a perfect goal for my mind and spirit while I am eating Mac n Cheese, sweet potatoes, and greens for the 3rd day in a row.

WHY??? I don't know I just have been in the mood for historical drama... even if I know everyone dies in the end. I have watched House of Flying Daggers like 50 times and I plan to watch this again, but I really need something like Mirror of the Witch that includes some sort of magic. I will find something awesome to watch!!! Now I am excited about Thanksgiving!!! 

        

30 Days of Me: Day 7: Something That Made The Biggest Impact On Me

At first thought my mom came to mind as far as biggest impact on my life, as far as the way I was raised, but I have to say something that had a huge impact was....

The above pic is after an extended stay in the hospital in May of 2007. I was dressed to leave, but still laying in the bed that I had been in for a month. I was probably 80 lbs give or take. Later in December on the 17th it was revealed that I needed an emergency surgery called an “ileostomy” or I would died. 

The above picture isn’t me but, this is how I had to live for 3 months. Luckily my ostomy was able to be reversed. 

If you look close at this picture on the left, you can see where the stoma is on my belly. When I heard the doctor say ileostomy, I thought my life was over. When I came out of surgery he told me it would be reversed, but in those 3 months I found out how strong and amazing I could be. You have to remember in 2007-2008 I was 23-24 years old. I was fresh out of undergrad and hadn’t really figure life out, but I continued and I lived. This was definitely a turning point in my life and I realized life is too short. I had to live. It took another 2 years to really focus in and figure out what I wanted to do with my life, but I am not sure if my life would have gone this way had I never experienced getting as sick as I got. I appreciate this experience. Sometimes it takes something like this to move you out of the situation you are in and into a better situation. I have some amazing scars and I love them because they represent where I’ve been and that I lived through it. My mom says the scars are not as noticeable, but I see them and I am ok with that and embrace them. 

  

30 Day Challenge: Day 6: Favorite Super Hero

Anyone who knows me knows that I love the Power Rangers. I have discussed that fact in the past on this blog. It was here that I set my goal to meet the original cast of  Mighty Morphin Power Rangers. As much as I love Tommy Oliver (the beloved Green, Iconic White then also red (twice) and black ranger), my FAVORITE superhero is the Pink Ranger. We have 27 years of Power Rangers and 45 years of Super Sentai. Super Sentai is like Power Ranger’s daddy. Of all those years of the seasons I have watched I have a top 3 of my FAVORITE pink rangers. 

3.) Kat (MMPR, Zeo, Turbo) 

So honestly it took adulthood for me to be able to understand that Kat was a good person. In her storyline she comes in as a pawn used by Rita Repulsa to weaken the power rangers, Kimberly the original pink ranger in particular. In the end she ended up helping the rangers once she realized she was being used. It was the end of an era as we end up saying goodbye to Kim and Kat filled in as Pink Ranger. It wasn’t the first time we had a switch-a-roo, on the show but this was a big one for me. BUT when I discovered her on the ZEO season I fell in love with Kat. She ended up fitting in very well for the show.  OHHH and Catherine Sutherland is the sweetest person. (The pic gives me Olivia Newton John vibes) 

2.) Jen (Time Force) 

Time Force was the first season I watched without “Tommy” that was mind blowing (for me) and the storyline was more mature as much as it could be for a kids show. First off she is technically the “leader” as she is in charge of the crew from the year 3000, she watches her fiancé die only to go to the year 2000 and find a dude that looks like the dead fiancé. LIKE WHAT??? NUTS right? But seriously I always have to put Erin Cahill on my list because she is the NICEST most down to earth celebrity. Like her smile and the way she greets you is like she actually appreciates your existence as a fan. She does Hallmark and Lifetime Movies and its Christmas time so you will see her. 

1.) Kimberly

Ironically when I first started watching Power Rangers I actually really identified with Trini, she was really calm, and peaceful. When Trini left Kimberly was my stability. (Don’t question my state of mind I was a kid.) As time went on I realized I was as much of a mall rat and valley girl as Kimberly. I mean as Valley as a girl from Dover, Delaware can be. Also the Tommy and Kim thing sold it too. I was like OMG I want to be the the gymnast who gets the black belt. (Not so much for Princess of DE) I haven’t met Amy Jo Johnson, I hope that I do one day. 

Ok so Sentai... 

Ahim de Famille

*Gokaiger honestly helped to make me value Power Rangers more. The season is basically a bunch of randoms (space pirates) who just want to find the “the greatest treasure” in the universe and don’t have much care or respect of the power they hold, but as they go on they start to see what they have.... they were badass... and Ahim was a badass even though she exuded that love vibe that pink rangers give she was still a G. 

*Rin

After watching Gokaiger and realizing Power Rangers had some explaining to do I watched Gosei Sentai Dairangers and most of the continuity questions I had about Season 2 of Power Rangers were answered. Dairangers was another out of this world season with badass rangers and ridiculous bad guys. And the pink ranger was sweet but tough.

Ok so Honorable Mentions: 

Cassie- Power Rangers Turbo, Power Rangers in Space

 Sydney- Power Rangers SPD

Mei- Zyuranger

Ok so I can’t do this post without mentioning Shelby from Power Rangers DinoCharge 

Me cosplaying as Shelby in my ex’s backyard 

Honestly the character mean everything to me because this was the first time a pink ranger was an African American. I mean I dropped a couple of tears because I waited 20 years, for someone to realize African American women can be soft, sweet, kind and a Boss (or a freaking valley girl that just wants to shop all day), not to say that all the African American Yellow rangers weren’t great cause Karan, Nakia, and others are amazing, but let’s keep it real why did it take so long (aside from a couple of times they didn’t have a pink ranger)? BUT unfortunately the actress who played Shelby is... living the Hollywood (but in NYC) life and I feel shuns Power Rangers. And that’s cool boo do you I get, but sometimes you have to appreciate your past/fans of the fandom. Just saying.  

P.S:

Shameless PLUG... I am a superhero too... let’s put it like this, I had colleagues come into my classroom and a gentleman was looking at my stuff and said: “You really are the Pink Ranger.” I was like... “Yeah.” No one refutes it so....