Journaling Self Discovery Challenge Day 1

What would you be doing if money wasn’t an issue? 

So I pondered this question and I swear I go back and forth with the answer. I mean at first I thought well if I am absolutely honest with myself I would just do nothing. If money isn't an issue then I could be found on a beach relaxing drinking a banana margaritas (yes that's a thing). 

But of course I feel guilt for wanting to do nothing. How does lounging on the beach help anyone? It doesn't really help me. And if money isn't an issue, wouldn't we be better equipped to help others? 

I recently found out about Signature Strengths and one of mine happens to be love of learning. Call me a nerd, geek, whatever, I have a vast knowledge of pop culture, and knowledge of random facts (like if I see certain birds in the neighborhood I look them up by attributes and never forget it, so I can identify birds to the point that I really want to join the Audubon Society). AND even though most of us hate it, I enjoy professional developments (except the boring ones). I do indeed love learning at leisure. Since I have a bachelors and masters seems like a doctorate would be next... only I don't want a doctorate in education... I have been studying on my own the Science of Well-Being and I have an interest in Positive Psychology.  I actually decided to get a specialization in this science. Basically, it will certify that I learned about Positive Psychology, but I really think that it would be good to have a formal education in the science and use it in some way that could help people. I don't know how I expect to do this, but I hope that one day I am a person who people listen to about maintaining a positive outlook on life. Sometimes I get down on myself because I am not ALWAYS happy, I get sad, upset and depressed like anyone else, but I would love to share that realness/vulnerability with others. I might not even have to get a degree in Positive Psychology, to be a "guru" but it seems like that would make it legit. LOL!  

I could see myself traveling for both leisure and work, because I would be a motivational speaker. (Hopefully I would learn the skills to stop self sabotaging.)

If money isn't an issue I feel like I would be better equipped to help my sorority when we work on service projects. 

Also I would move to California... I would invite my mom and brother to move with me, of course they would get their own spot on my property and I would have a Maltese and a Yorkie.  ( I would name them Min and Jun for reasons) I would still have opportunities to lounge on a beach or just in my backyard and still get to drink banana margrita's.  

What wouldn't we do if Money wasn't an issue? I can put together a full list of things... to help others and myself.  Like have children, get a new smile (like veneers), take my boo to Hawaii (yes I would take them cause money ain't a thang), give to an organization of my choosing, adopt a child, and of course cosplay, etc etc etc.   
It's safe to say I would not have the same day job. 

30 Day Challenge: Day 9: Proud

 So Last Night I was working on Day 9 which was to discuss something that has happened in the past few days that made me proud... not only was I having a difficult time, I also was slightly disheartened  to even do this... I was also EXHAUSTED. Lately work is wiping me OUT! But below is the paragraph I was trying to work on.
(*** where I stopped last night)
Day 9: Proud
Honestly I am proud to be using the best practices when it comes to working with my students. In a meeting recently I felt supported because it was recognized that I was doing the right thing when dealing with particular behaviors in my classroom. I am not knew to tantrums and I also understand the only behavior I can control is my own. I feel like I was able to maintain my cool with kids and adults. I explained what techniques I had been using and I was praised for those techniques, and in a positive was given pointers for the future.  The whole thing goes a LONG way for me, because there are way too many times that as a teacher doing the best that I can for kiddos who are unique with special needs, and no one acknowledges the good I have brought to the table. Sometimes that is disheartening as you bust your butt for the school... because genuine praise can go a long way. Which is why we are supposed to be praising children all day. It should be a genuine praise.

***This is why I like to give compliments to others because you never know when your compliment just made someone’s day.  Also not gonna lie, as much as I try to remain cool, calm and collected, like totally nonchalant about stuff... being “highly effective” as a teacher is like getting an A+ and brings me pure joy. I mean if I’m going to do a thing I ought to be being the best... so if I can’t be Beyonce on stage, then I might as well be Beyonce in the classroom. And I am not being rewarded or awarded, but my kids (students) are better people because of me. At least that is what I see in them in the 2nd grade (sometimes first sometimes 3rd) during the school year.

30 Days of Me: Day 4: Bad Habits

Lately, I have developed a really bad habit of falling asleep around 8-10 pm and waking up around 12-3 am, trying to figure out what happened.

So, I will get home a little before 4pm and discuss dinner.  Depending on the day and how my life is set up I will eat Dinner ASAP. I am always super hungry after work. Then I try to stay downstairs to seem like a good family member until 6 or 7pm. Once in my bedroom sleepiness starts to happen. I don’t know if this is from staying active all day or if this is a new “you’re turning old” situation. 

ALL of my YEARS of being a Para or Teacher I would stay up until about 2am. Then I would wake up at 6 something and go about my day. People thought I was nuts but it was how my body rolled.  It wasn’t every night. I would crash Wednesday. So Sunday-Tuesday I would be up until 2am, Wednesday I would fall asleep at 10pm and then I was back at it for the rest of the week. 

Now I am falling asleep early, but this is problematic because after so many years of night owling my body is like: “Wait, Stop... you fell asleep at 9pm, you must need to wake up at 3am.” Which is WAY too early. I am not like one of those early rise people. I want to wake up when the alarm is set to go off, which is about 6:20am. 

Tonight is one of those “I fell asleep at like 9pm” nights only this time I woke up at 12am. This was actually a good thing because I was about to mess up and forget about posting for Day 4. 

I just need my body to get itself together. It has nothing to do with the time change because this started in September. 

I think it’s link to other things like turning into old people/personal turning old issues. I don’t think it is school anxiety, but it could be work related as I seem to be focusing so much of my time and energy on work....

I’m a SCHOOL MARM!!!!! I might as well live at the school. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 

BLEH...  

30 Days of Me Challenge Day 1: New Pic & 15 things

My school pic for the 2019-2020 school year. I look like an awesome high school senior. I wish all my school pictures look like the above picture. To go along with today’s challenge is to also add 15 interesting facts about me. Some of these things you will already know, some of these things you may have already concluded. Honestly, when I look over the list I have only listed the skim of myself. These are of the outer layer. Sometimes its hard to go deeper than that first layer of ourselves. Or maybe I just find these particular things to the most interesting about me. Maybe this challenge will dig a little further as I move along, but first here is the list: 

1.) Never wanted to be a teacher, but somehow here I am doing that ish... (I wanted to be famous.) 
2.) I was born and raised in Dover, DE. I am still here.  (please help me I can’t get out.)
3.) I am a member of Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority, Inc. (Skee-wee) 
4.) Everyone has accepted that I am the pink ranger. (Greek and geek) 
5.) Typically, everyone already knows I love Korean Drama and Korean Pop. 
6.) My Ultimate Kpop group is 2pm and my bias is Jun. K (EVERYONE knows this) 
7.) I have teacher friends, ranger friends, sorority sisters (friends) Kpop friends, Howard U Friends and High School Friends (that I actually talk to fairly regularly) 
8.) Recently it has become more apparent that I am a fan of Canada’s finest: Drake.  ( I just can’t get over the fact that “Wheelchair Jimmy” is a big time rapper now) 
9.) Starbucks is life! (Caramel Macchiato and White Chocolate Mocha hot or Frappuccinos) 
10.) Doing a professional development for work really made me feel good. (Doing something successfully that you didn’t know you could is a mood booster.) 
11.) I love to shop. I love clothes! I will shop wherever there are nice things for a good price. 
12.) I have three dogs. Baby, Bennie, Cha Chi Soo. After my grandfather passed away we accepted Bennie as our own. It’s been difficult meshing these guys together because they are all ankle biters: Weshi (look it up), Pom, and Yorkie. 
13.) Power Morphicon 2018 made me feel like I can be and do anything! Amazing experience. (Power Morphicon is a Power Ranger convention) 
14.) I love to cosplay. I have cosplay goals. (OMG I should do Joe Gibken again) 
15.) I have the best intentions in my heart. I just want to show the world I am awesome and to help people to know that you too can make it through (the rain as Mariah Carey sang) Does it get hard...yes...Do we fail...yes... can we get back up and try again...EVERYDAY!