30 Day Challenge: Day 21 Something That Makes You Happy

OMG I have had this blog on edit for like 3 weeks so its safe to say I fail at 30 day challenges BUT it is also safe to say I don’t give up either...

Cosplay or Fanfic, that is the question?

Pure pleasure come from both. It’s difficult for me to put it into words, but I feel happy and well sometimes pain in both, but the outcome is usually a very happy feeling. I don’t really get to do these things that often. Sometimes I cosplay my fanfic characters. SOoooo truthfully my fanfic main character is in my mind me and I often use my name or something close to my name when I am writing because putting myself in the story is what makes writing become my escape. I get two different “happys” from cosplay and fanfic. 

First for my “normies” that aren’t so sure what cosplay means... is basically the word costume and play meshed, meaning dressing in costume as a particular character and at times being in character. So acting as that character as well.

With cosplay I get a rush... it starts with nervousness and it ends with me feeling proud that I pulled it off. To me there are two different cosplay styles. There are original outfits and then there are full on costumes. Now I will be honest my outfits and cosplays have been to my affordability. I am the pink ranger, but a Ranger Suit is close to $1000 plus (for a good one). I can’t... and I guess I am not ready for that sort of commitment. (But if you have a suit and want me to rock it, I will.) And if you are a true cosplay artist you really want your cosplay to have character continuity, in other words look authentic af. Anyway “original” cosplay outfits to me are like:

 

This is just one of the “mighty fine” power ranger tank dresses that I added a few accessories to in order to make it my own.  I think its pretty cool and I think it made a great impression on fans and the actors.

Another example:

I call this one Jun. K’s School Girl Fangirl as the Panda is his animal. There is a lot to explain here but 2pm fans already know Pan. K is Jun. K. 

Ok so the truth is I do what is called “civilian cosplay” again I don’t own a suit so I copy an iconic outfit like:

 This is the pink ranger outfit from the 1995 Power Rangers Movie. I tried to match it completely.

This is the pink ranger from Power Rangers Dino Charge, I felt that the outfit from the first episode was memorable enough, but I also have a pink energem and Dino Charge Morpher. 

This is the outfit from the 2017 Power Ranger Movie. 

Above are my interpretation of Joe Gibken also known as the Gokai Blue and Luka Millfy also known as Gokai yellow. These are characters from the Super Sentai universe. I really had a good time with these two as well. I enjoyed being Joe cause that was a gender bender and I ran into a couple of dudes at a comic- con who weren’t sure and that’s great because I nailed it then. *insert cheesy grin*
My most recent cosplay went into the X-men Universe. I really enjoyed X-men the animated series and my FAVORITE character is Rogue, she is sexy and sassy, but Jubilation Lee is cute and fun. I went for it... One side is my summer Jubilee look and the other side is my winter Jubilee look. It was funny because a friend asked me if I was going to cut my hair for the look and I was like ”NAH” I figure I don’t want to buy a trash wig, but something I could live with and wear later. So I basically transformer Jubilee from an Asian American Mutant to an African American Mutant with a natural curly look. In cosplay race doesn’t/shouldn’t really matter (no black face please but by all means paint yourself blue, purple, or green if need, but you don’t have to be brown to be Storm Karen).

Jubilee has probably been as exciting as my 1995 Power Rangers the Movie Kimberly. So many people shout out Jubilee and compliment the cosplay. A dude even stopped dead in his tracks and said: “I love you, I love you, I love you.” And that is the joy I am talking about because when you do your cosplay right you are going to do one of two things or both: You will love that you brought the character to life and/or you bring a character to life for someone. My cosplay is definitely Jubilee the animated character/comic book character and not the movie character. This is the Jubilee people remember (because the movies don’t give a storyline anyway). I can honestly say I made a fantasy come to life.

Now Fanfic...  (enters Marques Houston, Jun. K and Drake)

First I have been writing fanfic since the sixth grade. AND most people who knew me back then know those stories were all about Marques Houston and me and yes there were some “freaky” aspects... which was apparently the most ridiculous or crazy thing a 6th grader could ever write about, which I am not sure how that is so crazy when in 100%  of all the fanfics I wrote Marq and myself we seriously dating or married and therefore freaky ish is bound to happen... to me it was art but whatever it helped me get through my teen years without having issues aside from failing algebra in 9th grade. I found that I had less and less time to write fanfics as life progressed and now I usually start one in the summer months. Currently, I am DELIGHTED to have Jun. K be my current inspiration (and Drake). ODDLY enough I DON’T usually share my fanfics. WHY? Cause everyone is a critic. I don’t need you to tell me my grammar is off or that I spelled something wrong or there was a typo. For me I just need to get the s*** out of my head. For almost a year I visualized Drake sitting in a dark room smoking a cigar, in a room filled with people dancing, yet he was staring at me, Dani, who is dancing with her man, Minjun. That’s when things get crazy....

This is the digital cover for that Drake and Minjun story. I enjoyed it so much, but I know that it takes a turn because Drake... well he is a second male lead and... well a KDrama bean would know... the point is I got it out of my head and called it: When Toronto Came for Seoul   I have an opinion of my story that I can’t share because it would give away major details and spoil it. I also love to read good fanfic... there was this one called: “Shadows Behind You” and it was so good I have read it twice. Its a Junbros Shipper’s dream. My friend was working on a fic called: “Clawing at Ice” and its a Taeckay shipper’s dream. (Ask me what that means later if you want to know.) Now during Winter Break I am stepping out of my comfort zone and writing a Khunkay, Khunwoo drama. I am excited and I hope Hottests enjoy. 

Anyway if you couldn’t tell these things make me happy as I am enjoying talking about them and could go on and on...

Finally I was able to complete this blog...

  

30 day challenge: Day 20: Someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the Future

YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME!!!! I mean currently I have zero love interest... well I have “interest” but I honestly think the probability of an actual situation ship/relationship/etc is doubtful so  I will save you the words and do exactly what you and I both know is who I truly could see myself with in the future...enjoy.

 

 

 

 

 

 

  I hope this clarifies any remaining questions.... LOL!!! OH and all credit to the photo people who like took the pics or edited them.  Not my pics just saying....

30 Day Challenge: Day 14: Celebrity Crush

OK so ya girl pulled a cop out... smh REALLY Day 14 said to post a pic of your family, and although I love my family, I just didn’t know what to say... and I didn’t want to post just the pic with a small blurb, so I went to Pinterest and looked up other 30 day challenges. I found a basic challenge and looked at number 14 LOL!!!! It said celebrity crush and I just about died. CAUSE everyone should know my celebrity crush.... OMG just the simple fact that I am on this topic is exciting. Not to say that my family isn’t but you know I share my family the way that I want to share my family and this wasn’t it. Not tonight at least.

 SO CELEBRITY CRUSH!!!!!!  You already know... but you know what here is my time to explain (as if I haven’t already) what it is about him in particular that turned me from someone who was just a Kdrama lover to a Jun.K lover. Formerly known as Kim Junsu of 2pm he changed his name to Kim Minjun (2012). Now you know when I say Minjun I am talking about Jun. K. (When I go on tangents on facebook, and I use Minjun instead of Jun. K I figure people think I am talking about two different people.) 

I KNEW that if I got into Kpop it was over for me. I knew I needed to keep Kpop casual, because Kdrama had already become a great passion for me. Like I have made my mom a full fledge dramabean, I actually turned my co-worker into a dramabean, but curiosity killed the cat

right??? My gateway to KPOP... The Drama: Boys Over Flowers (currently on Netflix check it out... its a starter Drama).  Kim Hyun Joong is the dude with the “red” (Auburn) hair color. He was the Second lead in this Drama. I really liked him more than the Lead (Lee Min Ho). When I really like something I look for more of it. (Here is where the cat was killed).  Come to find out Kim Hyun Joong was really a Kpop artist. From a group called SS501(Double S 5-0-1). There was a time when Kim Hyun Joong was THE guy I was talking about all the time so much so I was in my garage teaching myself the dance to his song: Unbreakable. (I still know it.) I also watched his other dramas and learned all about SS501.  Anyway Kim Hyun Joong was known as the “Korean statue” like that’s how “perfect” they thought him to be... until an ex came out talking about ”he abused me and caused me to miscarriage“ and all that type of crazy.... he kind of ended up in a web of dishonor and pulled one of those let me quietly enlist. Well you know Chris Brown said it best cause “these h*es ain’t loyal”... I mean I still appreciate Kim Hyun Joong’s work ((as I still appreciate Chris Brown’s (when its reasonable)) but between all the drama and the 2 years of enlistment I had to let it go.


All of this is happening in 2014 by the way... I distinctly remember 2pm was on the Go Crazy World Tour in THE USA and I was reading the articles like “oh cool a Kpop group is touring in the states, good for them” and basically a year later I was in love. Biggest regret is not going to see them when they were in the states. But that would have been a lot of money spent on something I didn’t even know or like...yet.

If you know me and you have paid attention to my antics than you already should know the songs that lead me to love 2pm. If you said ADTOY than you love me. ALL DAY I THINK OF YOU. Watch the video... I am going to put it right here... go ahead I’ll wait...

    

Its not the famous butt dance, or the fact that each member is sexy in his own special way... but at 3:14 the voice hit my WHOLE ear. In order to know the person with the voice I had to learn how to identify each member. I googled 2pm and said “no not him” five times, process of elimination. I found Jun. K. As the song At Last says: “then the spell was cast.”  So honestly I started to like 2pm by default, I mean Jun. K has written and produced some of their songs so you gotta like the group. I specifically love him. Overall it started with his voice. I looked up his solo work and let me keep it real I wondered how a very black r&b voice came out of this Korean boy. OH to be a black person who loves Kpop... it makes you question your reasoning from time to time. You can say what you want the reality is Korea has appropriated the **** out of black culture (so has Japan but I really don’t have the time cause as usual Japan took it to another level) Korea tends to teeter between appreciation for black culture and/or black face (the “Its supposed to be a joke but its hurtful” kind) I am not blind nor dumb, I see it. Folks made a super ridiculous big deal about Kpop star Henry’s music video that featured Korean girls with cornrows, yet Koreans will do blackface faster than a drunk white American politician and be like shoulder shrugs.  Apparently, Jun. K put on black American swagger so hard, band mate Junho thought he was American. I imagine Minjun’s reply was like: “Nah I’m from Daegu.” And Junho’s face is: 

                This took a turn didn’t it. 

MAY BE I am bias, but to me Minjun is soulful, in other words he has said: (paraphasing) “When I wrote the song “With You” I was listening to a lot of Motown and the Jackson 5, so that sound influenced me.” For your listening and viewing pleasure: With You.

I view Jun. K as an overall artist because this dude wrote a song called: “ Mary Poppins” and proceeds to dance with an umbrella you know cause that’s what Mary Poppins has with her and that big bag. 

This guy did a music video for his “Love Letter” track and dressed as Charlie Chaplin in the music video. His music videos always have an underlying artistic metaphor. In other words he is ahead of his time. (And No Shadows is one of the best metaphorical MV in his catalogue). And then there was the time he found trap music.... You know usually you have an artist and like you kind of know what to expect because they are in a particular genre, with a particular sound. Jun. K was like nah, I want to sound like Gene Kelly, in a trap house at Motown, with the Perry Como band behind me and give it a Christmas feel. DON’T BELIEVE ME??? 

The point is I feel like I can bring Jun. K to the barbecue and the debutante ball. He is going to impress everyone with his rendition of “You and I” by Stevie Wonder who inspired him to make music. 

His voice is amazing to me (even if I can tell when his pitch is off or when he makes mistakes) and as any woman would I noticed other things

about him that are nice as well...

Keeping it real, this is only the tip of the iceberg when it comes to my appreciation for Jun. K. The fact of the matter is I let things get out of control once I was single. (Is Jun. K the rebound that never got away?) I don’t know if any of this makes sense... but I hope you walk away knowing that Jun. K is my celebrity crush or as we say in the kpop world he is my ultimate bias. I am a Hottest, (2pm’s fan base name.) Someone said: “You’re not a hottest if you only love one member.” I do love my 6, but can I keep it real, I would have NEVER even researched 2pm if I had never heard Jun.K’s voice. BUT I wonder if he would still have been my bias if I started from the debut of 2pm considering he had NO lyrics and very minimum ad libs.

Poor “Junsu” and his undocumented lyrics or lack thereof. I am glad to have found 2pm when I did and I am happy to be at 30 days to go until Jun. K’s enlistment is complete. I really hope he spent his free time writing songs so he can come out and drop like 10 solos during the 400 some days that Chansung and Junho have left until 2pm can be WHOLE again. Ok not 10 that is excessive, but like 2-3... please. LOL! (And maybe another musical, drama or movie.)  No pressure.

I stan Jun. K to pieces.

 

  Me and my Jun. K merch...
1.) Phone case 2.) No Love Hate 3.) No Shadow Tour Tee) 4.) Pan. K school girl tee 5.) No Shadow Tour Hoodie

30 Day Challenge: Day 10: Favorite Songs for Different Moods

How do I even do this LOL!! Music is life. And sometimes a WHOLE album is a mood. Drake’s Take Care is that kind of album. But you know if I am sad I usually don’t feed into that emotion with more sadness. This challenge literally said: “Songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad.” But I usually listen to songs to feel a way and not because I am already feeling a way. It more of a mood thing... If I am in a mood I might put on Etta James or Teena Marie. For Etta I will either sing (yes sing): “I would rather go blind” or “All I could was cry” and with Teena it’s “Casanova Brown”


Now I am really weird because I can go from listening to the fluffiest of Jpop to well Drake LOL my mornings could be:
Jun. K: Good Morning

Or Drake: Nonstop

When my inner bad girl wants to shine my go to is Rihanna.

The song that wakes me up every morning:

When I want to be in that big band/American standard time period I love Judy Garland, Dinah Washington, Ella Fitzgerald.

Wait let me not forget about MARIAH!!!! 

Mariah really has too many to add... I will just say: Memoirs of An Imperfect Angel is a WHOLE MOOD!! 

 Now my ALL TIME FAVE is Michael Jackson but I don’t listen to him often because since he has passed listening to his music is instant sadness. Now I will listen every now and then and I have attended Michael Jackson events, but eventually my emotions get the best of me. BUT WHOLE MOODS: 

 

This is just a little bit, so many other groups and songs.... 

I wrote a fanfic and I have a “soundtrack.”

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL-uUZpy1hvXkaCnomEhpqcNjavs6irion

I am old people and I still have these even tho I stream like most people... 

30 Days of Me Challenge Day 1: New Pic & 15 things

My school pic for the 2019-2020 school year. I look like an awesome high school senior. I wish all my school pictures look like the above picture. To go along with today’s challenge is to also add 15 interesting facts about me. Some of these things you will already know, some of these things you may have already concluded. Honestly, when I look over the list I have only listed the skim of myself. These are of the outer layer. Sometimes its hard to go deeper than that first layer of ourselves. Or maybe I just find these particular things to the most interesting about me. Maybe this challenge will dig a little further as I move along, but first here is the list: 

1.) Never wanted to be a teacher, but somehow here I am doing that ish... (I wanted to be famous.) 
2.) I was born and raised in Dover, DE. I am still here.  (please help me I can’t get out.)
3.) I am a member of Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority, Inc. (Skee-wee) 
4.) Everyone has accepted that I am the pink ranger. (Greek and geek) 
5.) Typically, everyone already knows I love Korean Drama and Korean Pop. 
6.) My Ultimate Kpop group is 2pm and my bias is Jun. K (EVERYONE knows this) 
7.) I have teacher friends, ranger friends, sorority sisters (friends) Kpop friends, Howard U Friends and High School Friends (that I actually talk to fairly regularly) 
8.) Recently it has become more apparent that I am a fan of Canada’s finest: Drake.  ( I just can’t get over the fact that “Wheelchair Jimmy” is a big time rapper now) 
9.) Starbucks is life! (Caramel Macchiato and White Chocolate Mocha hot or Frappuccinos) 
10.) Doing a professional development for work really made me feel good. (Doing something successfully that you didn’t know you could is a mood booster.) 
11.) I love to shop. I love clothes! I will shop wherever there are nice things for a good price. 
12.) I have three dogs. Baby, Bennie, Cha Chi Soo. After my grandfather passed away we accepted Bennie as our own. It’s been difficult meshing these guys together because they are all ankle biters: Weshi (look it up), Pom, and Yorkie. 
13.) Power Morphicon 2018 made me feel like I can be and do anything! Amazing experience. (Power Morphicon is a Power Ranger convention) 
14.) I love to cosplay. I have cosplay goals. (OMG I should do Joe Gibken again) 
15.) I have the best intentions in my heart. I just want to show the world I am awesome and to help people to know that you too can make it through (the rain as Mariah Carey sang) Does it get hard...yes...Do we fail...yes... can we get back up and try again...EVERYDAY!  

Ironically I started a KDrama blog...

I have indulged in KDrama (Korean Soap Operas) . I was certain that it was the best thing since sliced bread and you know what I still think they are pretty cool, but...after watching the Mischievous Kiss: Love in Tokyo (Japanese Drama) I and feeling like I don't need to continue watching. Soap Operas/Romances/Romance Novels have the same on going theme, there is a girl who loves a boy, the boy doesn't give her the time of day and after a series of ridiculous situation the boy finds that he is madly in love with the girl and they marry. THE END (Or it can be a boy who is in love with the girl who is oblivious)
First lets understand me...I am not one for the Romance Genre, I think it is BULL, a load of crap! And that is quite hilarious since once upon a time I use to write romance. (what is now known as fan fiction) The problem I had with them is the emotion that comes with watching, the happiness, the anger, the sad the suspense. I really don't deal with suspense well at all. Oh you know when the evil mom has the girl kidnapped and we are waiting for the hero(s) to came and save her and its like the clock is ticking and just before it gets to 1 here they are to save the day. I just don't like suspense like that....
But then I found Korean Dramas, and I found Flower Boy Ramen Shop...a Romantic Comedy. I could relate to the character because she was becoming a school teacher, BUT she ends up having issues with one of the male students who also happens to be the son of the president of one of the biggest companies in Korea. Cha Chi Soo and his arrogance to go with his dramatic effect/charisma was sooo awesome!  I found myself watching and watching. Through a twists and turns the "student intern" and the rich Cha Chi Soo fall in love only to be told by the rich Cha enterprise president that they should be together, they didn't listen and the girl gets the boy and vice versa.
I needed MORE of Cha Chi Soo so I found another drama with Il Jung Woo and watched it, The Moon Embraces the Sun, and that one was awesome same theme, but historical romance drama with everything from a dead would be princess to a returned back to life would be princess, who was in love with the heir to the throne and long story short becomes wife to the king...happy ending. Then Answer Me 1997, this time I got away from Il Jung Woo, and watched from a suggestion. Then 49 Days, When a Man Loves, BOYS OVER FLOWERS (EPIC) and finally I just finished Mischievous Kiss and it is was at this point that I found myself to be over the Drama.
Maybe its because I didn't get a chance to watch it everyday, for hours at a time because they were being uploaded each week or maybe the ending was just too perfect I am not sure, but it made me a little upset.
Overall its probably my own wants and needs interfering with the fantasy aspect of the shows. Or maybe it is just the idea that nothing not even love comes easy. Because for 15 episodes homegirl loved dude even when dude was cold and about to marry someone else, and then on episode 16 all of a sudden like a bolt of lighting the boy admits to loving the girl and a marriage ensues.
The probablem I have is from experience I don't care how much you love a person if it doesn't happen it won't and if its not supposed to happen then it won't. In American Romance we would have made the girl who loves the one guy get with the the other guy while the guy she loves marries the other girl and then bring the two back together to have an affair. But then that is the difference between American Drama and K/J Drama. Our shows almost never stop after one season. Theirs stop at episode 16 or 20 and it ends. There is a plan clear cut ending and someone always gets what they wanted from the beginning.
As much as I love the Asian in me from a past life I don't want to lose my edge by watching dramas that are cookie cutter.