APPRECIATION POST!!!!

I was thinking... and realized its been a little while since I did an appreciation post... and then I was thinking who can I show love to this time....🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔

This girl is Deborah!!! She is chill, she is lowkey, she is POSITIVE VIBES!!! I don’t think I have ever heard her like complain and if she does its with good reason. She is a silver lining GOD totally has my back kind of WOMAN!!! (Which is the best kind btw.) I have to highlight her for her positive vibes and because she has ALWAYS been one of my supporters. We go WAY back! Like High School way back. Even back then she was always very sweet. Moving on to College I was away at Howard, she was away at Temple and she would follow my blog on MySpace. (We aren’t old tho LOL). Recently, I think I said something on Instagram about my blog and she was like: “I gotta catch up.” Meaning she STILL follows my posts. THIS is so meaningful to me. BUT FORGET ABOUT ME let me tell you more about DEBORAH!

She is an author, self published I believe.... I was so proud that she did it. She actually accomplished something that I will be honest I am just scared too do. She and I always wanted to be authors, we even ended up at a writing conference right in Dover. I know one day I will get a book on the shelves or on your tablet, but right now I am just proud that she did it. Seeing her write a book and actually get it published encourages me and let’s me know I can too and I have her to go to an get some tips on getting it done. 

  Check it out on Amazon: Fractured Princess. 

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She is also a BLERD!!! 

Certified BLERD, she was a BLERD before I was even keeping it real about my BLERDINESS. I have never seen her try to be the so-called NORM, she always stayed true to herself. I always wanted to be cool (I am cool, now that I owned up to who I am 😎) Deborah always did her thing.  She has always liked sci-fi and expressed it. She started watching Chinese Drama and even though my love is towards Korean Drama when I saw her ONE post about Chinese Drama I immediately “attacked” her with Chinese Drama posts. 😂

Lastly Deborah is a FIGHTER! You don’t know who you are influencing. I haven’t always thanked Deborah for always having my back even though we don’t even hang out. It never mattered. We always keep in contact through social media, I follow her, she follows me. She always posts herself as herself. Like she is happy in the skin that she is in. Another “Dover Girl”  doing the best that she can in her situation working toward being the woman she wants to be. There has only been positive energy from her. That is her influence (for me anyway). So when she posted that she was in a battle with Hodgkin Lymphoma I literally cried out loud. (My fam was like WHAT THE DEUCE?) I was just so upset that yet another person my age (and myself included) was going through something health wise. (I will tell you about mine in that book I have promised you all). I was asking God why? “Why is the most beautiful hearted person having to go through this?” But then I started reading her captions and she just continued to expressed all the positive vibes of life. She expressed the stats of being cured and OF COURSE she talked about how God would see her through. Then she carried on. “On periodt” as the kids say today. That’s the faith she lives in. So THANKS Deborah for always keeping it positive. I KNOW it hasn’t always been easy, but thanks for always being grateful and showing your gratitude to God, enduring pain, but expressing love!!! 

(ALL PICS BELONG TO DEBORAH) 

The Beach... Forever?

Why are we obsessed with “paradise”? Or maybe it’s just me. At an age that I really didn’t need to I saw the movie Return to the Blue Lagoon. Not the famous Brooke Shields Blue Lagoon, but the sequel. Both movies are about children who end up on a deserted island and grow up unaware and uneducated about many things. Ignorance is bliss as they must and do survive living in paradise (without indoor plumbing). They also fall in love, have sex and make a baby on this island with no one but themselves. For whatever reason these sort of situations intrigue me. Probably because I can’t imagine 1.) going off the grid and 2.) no indoor plumbing. QUITE HONESTLY I think of female issues immediately because GOD knows it is every woman’s fear to be in a situation without out bathrooms and the necessary products to be clean.

YET... we or at least me... I have a fascination with being in “paradise.”  Is it the mundane of our daily lives that makes us want to give it all up and live on a beach forever, where the weather is always usually beautiful and warm? Or maybe it is because it happens to be winter and I am going through my “seasonal” depression.... IDK BUT after watching Leonardo DiCaprio’s The Beach at the age of 36 (opposed to 26 and 16) I don’t even know how someone would want to stay on a beach forever. Obviously #beachlife comes with its own set of issues.

I would get tired of sand and grit. I would miss soft textures like fleece, fur and pillows. Sand and Salt water makes for a great exfoliant, but like every day? IDK.  Also I can’t with make shift shelters like on Gillian’s Island. I mean look at them they were doing alright on the island and they wanted to get back home badly. I know that as far as people are concerned I don’t think I would really need them. LOL! If basic needs are met, such as food and shelter. (Few cans of bug spray) then I will be ok alone or with very minimum people. Seriously though the killer... the super killer... no WIFI. In this day and age is it possible to be in a place so remote there is no WIFI. I am sure places like that exist but my friends what good is a beach without sharing it on instagram. I am sure most of us don’t want to be all “cast away” complete with “Wilson.” When most people think of paradise they are are living their best lives in luxury.  We want to forget the stress of life and “paradise” helps until we go back.  I guess that is why movies like The Beach are interesting because these people really didn’t want to go back. If its an environment you grow up in then there is nothing else that you even know, but if you know the woes of the world then maybe you don’t want to leave. Me... I usually miss my bed and my stuff. I even miss my routine, like work and teaching. BUT there is always something in me that hopes to one day... go to some far off beautiful place maybe even with a dude I like or love or acquired in the hopes of going to a far of place. It still intrigues me... What far off place of paradise would you like to visit?

Greatest Success

Success???? What is it? How do you measure it? 
OMG that is such a teacher question. You can measure success IF you have created a goal. For example: “I will write a blog each day over the course of the month.” That means my outcome should be 30 (or 31) days of blogs. If I write 20/30 then I was only 66% successful. (This was really some teacher type stuff OMG why can’t I be regular). Unfortunately I don’t have a goal that I can measure like that. I mean the past decade I did earn my masters in special education, became a teacher, became an AKA and met practically all of the power rangers and there is a way to measure that, but how about I talk about something that other people can’t really see and some people have trouble handling...

People have trouble accepting who they are as a person. People have trouble accepting themselves because “society” says you are to be a certain way.  For many years I was called weird or different. I mean a few kids in school, even friends, some family always made comments like I was the different one. I talked about this in another blog. I am saying I have been successful in accepting my “different.”  When people friend or foe say: “you are different” or “You are so weird” or “why are you like that?” It makes you start to wonder too, like WHY AM I LIKE THIS? I think the biggest battle is the “your obsessed”  comment. I am sure I have blogged about this as well, because yeah I am obsessed. That word had such a negative connotation and literally to this everytime that I hear someone describe me with that word I cringe a little. I mean don’t we use obsessed when we are talking about people who stalk and kill people. There was a WHOLE movie called Obsessed that about a woman who had become Obsessed with a married man to the point of stalking and trying to kill. And also lying about the whole thing. And someone once told me the better word would be passionate, I find that word to be a little disturbing as well as it tied to lust and sexual feelings. (Not to say that...)

When I like something, well really I love it. I mean if you want to get technical I talk about work a lot. I like my profession, enough that I enjoy certain professional developments, I like team meetings, when something is offered I most usually accept it, I never fuss when A child of a different grade level is placed in my class, I for real enjoy the challenge of figuring kids out. I like learning about how to better myself as a teacher and I don’t care which principal says I am “highly effective” or plainly “effective” there is alway room for growth. I “obsess” about whether I am doing/making the right choices for my students as I love them as they are mine for 8hrs 5days a week (most weeks). I ponder about how I can improve the well-being of my students at odd times. I was just telling my mom I have to stop myself from messaging people at late hours because they are probably sleep and at home chilling. No one will call this weird I guess because its for a selfless situation. BUT...

Oh Sweet Baby Jesus...

 YOU LOVE AND TALK ABOUT THAT KOREAN STUFF TOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!! WHAT IS UP WITH THAT!!! 

Yeah man... I love Jun. K. Yeah man... I have written a few fanfics with him in it. Yeah man I can identify Jun. K by his eyes and teeth... like don’t you wish someone loved you that much??? No? And yeah maybe its a lot... but it is what it is... I didn’t say to myself, oh imma watch this video until I memorize his molars, I just happened to notice that he has some dental imperfections. Who doesn’t? But that is besides the point. I have my other infatuations... I have had them all my life and its not just like Jun. K and Power Rangers and Michael Jackson and Marques Houston, its small little things, like all music. I often surprise people because I know Perry Como and Cole Porter, and I went through a Dorothy Dandridge phase. When I was a kid I watched Beauty and the Beast so much I can recite the movie to this day. That’s my only Disney favorite.  I actually love clothes or maybe its the textures and the colors, when I was kid I use to hug dresses that were sequined, and I fantasized about the day I would be able to wear dresses like that and now I do. If I can’t figure something out I work on it until I do. I also know random trivia facts. Like at one point I thought trying out for Jeopardy, but I am more like Jeopardy Junior/College genius lol. There are other interests, I just happen to have several pictures and posters of Jun. K as well as his solo albums on display, I have all of 2pms albums also on display. I buy Jun. K merch and I have no Regrets because these things I speak about have brought way too much joy. 

 

So... I am cool with this person... because honestly I am not sure what I would do without these “Obsessions” I feel like I would be a dull person. AND yes I bring this particular topic up quite a bit and that is for two reasons. 

1.) It affected me deeply. I mean even my mom had a lot of trouble understanding me as a kid (And she really probably was just tired of hearing me talk all day about one particular subject especially one that means nothing to her like Michael Jackson).

 2.) There are people who struggle with serious issues, regarding sexuality and other thoughts and feeling that are very difficult to bring up and discuss because they were shot down everytime they tried to discuss it, and they never get to fully live the life they want because they are scared to expose their life. 

I want people to be free. I don’t want people to be tormented by there own thoughts and the opinions of others when people should just “live ya life.”  

Its a tough road because you have to de-program your brain from thinking you are bad to know that you are awesome. 

I now know I am awesome because I am weird, obsessed, passionate, intense, a nerd, a geek, and whatever else has been said so I am able to say I am successful in believing in my awesomeness (I have to be my own hype man)

PS: I know way too many fangirls who don’t tell their families don’t tell their friends, their fangirling is like living a double life all because people act like its crazy or something. Don’t hide girls (or boys) love your bias HARD (or soft)

 

5 Dream Destinations

First I finished the 30 Day Challenge so click if you want to check that out and I did a Decade review too!

We are now living in 2020!!!

2020 ... Perfect Vision... We can only try. In the mean time I am ready to continue living my life. I have travel plans, but they are all within the USA. I am very fortunate to be able to travel with my line sisters to Florida in January. We are celebrating 5 years of being women of Alpha Kappa Alpha. Its also like a week before my BDay so I am counting it as a birthday celebration too. Then in March I will be traveling to Connecticut for NARC (The North Atlantic Regional Conference) this is a sorority trip again. I am excited. I feel like I learn so much, not just for the Sorority, but to also use in my life. I look forward to it, I have never been to Connecticut. Unfortunately, its going to be cold. Next will be BOULE in July. This is when members of Alpha Kappa Alpha from all chapters, all over the world join together. You don’t just learn about being in the sorority, but you meet other “sisters” and let’s be honest the MERCH!!!  What girl doesn’t love to shop. That trip will be in Philly which is super close. LASTLY (well so far) MORPHICON!!!! Back in Pasadena. What is Morphicon? A Power Ranger convention. It’s going to be hilarious because my brain is going to be wired in PINK and GREEN, but after Morphicon I will legit be the PINK ranger for the rest of the Year. 

Unfortunately those trips aren’t my DREAM destinations, BUT I think I will list the places that are and maybe sometime I can put a plan in place to travel to my dream destinations. 

1.) South Korea 

I am not even going to act like this isn’t stop number one. Sometimes I get down on myself because its like do you really want to see South Korea or do you want to see Jun. K? How about both... I was once inspired by a picture of a black women at the Gyeongbok Palace.

At the end of the day I need to just go and get it out of my system (as if it would suddenly be out of my heart). I also left this wide open because sure the Palace is in Seoul, but I will HAVE to take a train to Busan, and I have to see Jeju.  

2.) Japan

Originally Japan was the spot I had to get to, I mean there is a museum dedicated to Super Sentai and Mask Man. I need that kind of a place in my life. BUT then 2pm taught me about Okinawa, which is so beautiful. It seems like if I am going to see Jun. K it will be in concert and more than likely that concert is going to be in Japan. So LET’S GO!!! 

3.) Philippines 

So if my plan with Jun. K doesn’t work then its off the the Philippines to get a 90 day fiancé. I am slightly serious. I could appreciate a nice Filipino gentleman. 

4. Thailand 

I really Really REALLY wanted to go to Thailand, but I feel like its a bit saturated... in other words it has become the Cancun Spring Break of travel. They are really keen on tourism tho and I mean its beautiful there so I can’t knock it, but it also looks like the trip I need to take with a spouse or a significant other. So I guess after I bag Jun. K he will need to take me to Thailand, so we can stay at Nichkhun’s house (OMG his home is gorgeous). Even Jun. K might say, I’ve been there can we go somewhere else... and then I would say do you mean...

5. New Caledonia 

Sweet Baby Jesus ‘Boys Over Flowers’ left the biggest impression on me. When they traveled to New Caledonia I LOST IT!!!  I don’t even know where it’s located on the globe (and I have looked but never remember) but every now and then just to feel cultured and rich I ask Alexa: “What’s the weather in New Caledonia?” To me that should be the new trendy trip. I don’t know why no one has caught on to this one. Or maybe this one is played out and I am the one who doesn’t know LOL!! 

So Basically I want the Tour of Asia Special. Now if I were RICH RICH I would grab Kass, fly to Turkey grab Eylul and we would hit those spots together... I am 100% sure we would get stuck in Seoul and by stuck I mean arrested. 

   

  

Decade Review... 2010-2019

2010:

Summer of 2010 my confidence was way up there LOL! I was 26 and felt golden... I had just start to get myself together after 2007-2009 of get healthy after my ileostomy and reversal.  Summer is always my time!.  I ended up getting a job as a para during the school year. 

2011: 

In 2011 the Danielle’s got together... good times...  AND I enrolled in the Special Ed Masters program at Wilmington University.

2012:

2012 was the start of meeting my goals to meet the Power Rangers... 2012 was also when I met Tony Ray... ❤️

2013:

2013 I continued into the power ranger lifestyle I did my student teaching and I graduated with my masters!!!

2014: 

 

2014: Official Teacher Official AKA Offical Girlfriend Official fangirl

2015: 

 

Yeah sums it up LOL 

2016: 

The Danielle’s got together for class of 2006 reunion oh and DAMN LOOK AT MINJUNNIE!!! 

2017: 

 

So I became an unofficial bridesmaid and officially single in 2017, and Minjun hurt himself.... 

2018:  

 

In 2018 Minjun left for the Army and I became a SUPER Fangirl LOL still a teacher by the way...

2019:

2019 I was unbothered.... at 35 years old!! 

HERE’S to 2020!!!! 

30 Day Challenge: Day 22: Uniqua

UNIQUA

So I am supposed to discuss what makes me different from other people... I feel like I should have interviewed people and asked them. I don’t know how I am different but I know that I am. For a long time i thought  that different was also a negative. Different implied that I was weird or not normal like everyone else. Odd even. WHICH is the ULTIMATE insult because I love all things even. It took such a long time from me to fall in love the unique that I am. First I had to recognize that my mom didn’t actually think I was weird, but she had trouble understanding my different. We talk about it all, we talk about my obsessions or as I like to call them “passions”. She also gives me credit because my different has taken me far.  Like my comic con life. 

I also had to recognize that so many people that I thought we haters (and were actual haters) weren’t dissing me because I was actually “weird” but they were haters cause they want to have the same gall to do some of the things that I do. 

Finally, I had to learn that different doesn’t equal weird. I am me... I am me... Dani D. She can be the teacher, the koreaboo, cosplayer, singer, let the good times roll, never mind I’m gonna just stay home.  I think people just aren’t ready for how deep I can take certain topics. BUT I will NEVER forget what my friend said to me one night... 

I apologized to him for talking his ear off about Jun.K and his response was: “But that’s just you.” He almost seemed as if he was saying it just wouldn’t be me to be any other way and that he accepted me  for it. 

THATS a friend!!!  Shout out to NICO!!! 

So what makes me different? I love hard... MY passion is strong... If we are real friends I would give you my heart... if you pretend to be my friend I know you are pretending but I will still love you. My imagination is ridiculous, like Barney ridiculous without drugs or alcohol. Whatever I am involved in I put my heart into it... which is why I actually gave a damn about school, band and other extracurricular. I don’t like to be f***ed over which is why I haven’t “settled.” We could go 10 years without speaking but if/when I reach out its like time never passed. My love never changed. I care about people who wronged me and I care for people who have loved me. I ignore the terrible things in the world because it would send me to a depression because I once believe in Michael Jackson’s dream to heal the world. I try to always have well wishes for everyone. I work my ass off in whatever I do and don’t usually seek reward or expect recognition.  I often have to hold myself back from over helping. There are so many times I am thinking of something that relates to a problem a friend or co-worker might be dealing with and I have to stop myself from texting them at like 12 am. 

Is that the kind of different you expected? Do you believe it? Do you disagree? Have I been mean? Yes. I have a tendency to get pissed when I feel like I am repeating myself or giving the same advice to the same problem and eventually I will snap and tell you how I really feel no sugar coating. Now I am careful when speaking to others because some people need sugar coating. I LOVE Jun. K and I would tell him to his face that he is pitchy and that wasn’t the right note. I could say to him easily: “No I don’t like that hairstyle.” Or plainly stop acting like a little boy and stand up for yourself live your life Minjunnie!!!! 

BUT honestly I can’t take it. The same treatment in return. If someone gives me a back handed ass compliment or says they don’t like something about it me... it hurts I internalize it and try to fix it. I will withdraw and meditate on what I’ve done. I got a bad review as a teacher once... you might as well had killed me... but I bet YOU I have only had HIGHLY EFFECTIVE after that review even if the person wasn’t eh “qualified” to review me in such a way I can never be at the point again.  A friend read one of my stories and was super critical and it was like a wrecking ball to my ego. Like what do you mean. After pouting I re-read the story over and over, until I one realized it was my story and two I only had to take some of the criticism seriously and forget the rest. He was right about some technical stuff, but his thought would have changed the whole story. 

Its a struggle because for so many years I was made to feel like I needed to stop being me to appease the world, but do you know how hard it is to be half of yourself. Its like you aren’t even living. I am so glad that’s all over. I mean I tone it down for people who can’t handle me, but I don’t turn Dani off anymore.     

PS: I blame everything on being an AQUARIUS...every part of me is JUST like an AQUARIUS.

30 Day Challenge: Day 19: Nickname explained...

Nickname?
I mean its Dani. BUT...

Dani D. started probably in my junior year of high school and carried on to college. I added Princess of Delaware to it because at the time there were like 3 students at Howard that admitted to being from Delaware. I wanted to stand out and sound as if I were “cool”. I used it as my stage name for the school radio. Unfortunately I was never really “cool” LOL. Regardless, I liked it and kept it. Through out the internet I use Princessofde as my “handle” (screen name). True story...if I were to ever be a rapper or singer (like really??) I would use Dani D. the Princess of DE. I would use Dani D. as my pin name.  There are no special stories about this nickname I am sorry. BUT...

I have another name that an aunt gave me and she would often use... and there is a better story.
When I was born, I was sick and so was my mom technically. So DAFB hospital shipped me via helicopter to Andrews Airforce Base Hospital to help me out. My mom unfortunately was in the hospital in Dover. My aunt went to Andrews to see me and exclaimed that I was a red head. This is funny because its not the typical red like an Irish woman or something, but brownish. From then on my aunt started calling me Strawberry Shortcake.

Actually I do have a Princess of DE story... remember a few blogs back I mentioned a time I had been in the hospital?  Well, I was in the hospital so long at Christiana that the nurses were referring to me as Princess, even though I had a Strawberry Shortcake blanket with me... speaking of... where is my blanket? 🤔

What is your nickname?

30 Day Challenge: Day 17: Freaky Friday (Short FanFIc)

 

The challenge given was “Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why.”  My mind went to the movies Freaky Friday and Vice Versa. In these movies the kids mind swapped bodies with parents and parents switched with kids. That’s kind of strange and the point was to get both parties to see both view points, cause the reality is parents do not always see things from their kid’s  perspective and kids definitely can’t see their parent’s point of view. But this is for the day and its not necessarily to learn a lesson. Honestly I want to switch for selfish reasons. It should be obvious who I need to be for a day...

Whoever Jun. K calls his girlfriend OR whoever Drake calls his girlfriend or in his case “casual” friend. I don’t know Jun.K’s girlfriend although there have been some guesses... 😡, but we (the world) has been told that Drake’s current “friend” is Kylie Jenner. Not that I want to be in that Kardashian klan BUT I want to see Toronto and Drake’s mansion and his airplane. Not even gonna lie it all might sound basic but I do.

You think maybe I should be someone who could help change the world. Like be a White House “whistle blower” and help with the impeachment garbage. Listen broski blew the whistle on himself... and the republicans are still out here like this is a “witch-hunt.”  So no... I need to be selfish and see how I am going to transfer $100K from Kylie wait is she a billionaire? Ok like $300K from Kylie and like $300K from Drake and they can call charity and I will call it a gift. Then I would pay everything off, like the dreaded student loans, and any other debt I have accrued cause I am dumb and this house of OURS. Wait let’s not be crazy cause the government would be like, where did you get this money and I am not trying to deal with all that so what I would do is pay lump sums but not off completely, right pay lump sums like every so often. But in the mean time I am going to go to Korea and find the one I really love. Jun. K. LOL!!!  Every scheme leads me to Jun. K. That is probably not a good look though.
Wait... let me explain this a little more clearly.... let’s bullet point....

• First “freaky Friday” into Kylie Jenner
• Second go to her bank and transfer funds into Princessofde’s bank account
• Third holla at Drake like: ”you trying to come to Cali or can I come see you” (Imma say it seductively) you know me I would be like: “Aubrey bring your airplane and pick me up” (I just want to fly in this plane) I imagine myself like this on the phone being seductive like:   
  
• So once in Toronto I might YOLO because I only have 24hrs to be Kylie and I wasted almost 5 hours flying to Toronto, well he would be on the plane with me so... yeah um it’s Kylie’s body right? Mile High Club LMAO!!!!! 
• Now I am in Toronto like: “OMG, $300K of mine disappeared!!! Like real OH WOE IS ME, right I mean Kylie is a billionaire so any intelligent person would be like: “B**** um obviously you learned how to grow money on trees.” So I gotta play to his heartstrings like, *fake Jenner tears* OMG 😱 I am so a$$ out right now, how did this happen, what am I going to do? **side note: Obviously if I need $600K I could just have Kylie gift it to my account, but why wipe her out when Drake has a whole airplane and is not broke and needs to be a philanthropist too. Plus I kind of just want to see how whipped he can be** 
• So now Drake gives me this money and shows me Toronto and then I gotta get back to LA or DE before the clock strikes midnight or something so I can body swap again. 
• I am not sure if I have to “fix” the money but that’s what gangsters do and I am indeed a gangster at this point LOL 
• Complete payment transactions 
• Plan a trip to Korea 
• Sit at the cafe until... “oops, 죄송합니다, (I’m sorry.) 안녕하세요 (hello)... I have bumped into Kim Minjun aka Jun. K and obviously we will fall in love. 

LOL See a WHOLE plan to fall in love with the real bae and fix some other problems in my life LOL!!!! 

Win Wins all around... Kylie and Drake can become philanthropist (giving to the “poor”) and Minjun can finally be happy in love... no more Mr. No Love.... Mr. In SO MUCH LOVE!!!! LOL with his YOUNG FOREVER GIRL!!!!

And then one night while Minjun and I are in bed about to fall asleep Minjun will say: “Man I would love to do a collaboration with Drake.... and my eyes will pop open like:  😳  It will be time for Freaky Friday: the sequel LMAO!!! Cause I would do it again and this time brainwash Drake so that the only thing he would be thinking about is collaborating with Jun. K. Or I could end up swapping with Drake LOL 😂 Hahahahaha haha!!!!

30 Day Challenge: Day 16: Selfie...

So I renamed the challenge. It really said Another Picture of yourself. First of all, why? I’m gross... second like again when was this challenge created. This person was running out of ideas... anyway I have two pics for your observations. LOL! (Also why is this the narcissist challenge LOL)

*WARNING* Pic number one is called: I Woke Up Like This.

We both look crazy, I was just “waking” up. I say it like that because I really wake up at 6:30am or so and literally lay in bed for hours (if its the weekend or a day off) My pup hates selfies so he was already over it.

Now here is a selfie that looks great (because its filtered) and my hair is fixed. That’s better right LOL!! Still not fully happy as I am either a work in progress or forever gross. But my hair stay on fleek. My stylist slays and my hair just be laid!

There you are more pics of me... what kind of content is this??? I mean unless you stan me (do you, I am accepting fans LOL). I am no one important. Just a single spec. ed. teacher  or as I like to say Schoolmarm.

Can I tell you are secret? I want to try a dating site. I wonder why I feel it in spirit to date again? Maybe Jun. K is lowkey getting married and as Drake said:  “LORD knows LORD knows”  the devastation will be real (but for realz dating wouldn’t not stop that devastation)

Meh... I rather be devastated by Minjun’s whatever, than to go through the dating process.

I rather write a fanfic about dating a person. LOL!!! I don’t need more reality humans I need more reality dogs....

OK so the truth is the person I would date... is famous and younger... another person I would date is famous (not Drake or Minjun) and my age... any other person I would date lives in California, but aren’t “famous,” yet... LOL! I am about to date me and be free.  (How did I even get to this...)

30 Day Challenge: Day 15: Top 10 Shuffle

I don’t know when this challenge was created but, it said “put your iPod on shuffle and list the first 10 songs.”  I am like I have never owned an iPod but, I can play the game lol I am just gonna use my phone which is a galaxy 7 lol (Adulting taught me upgrades cost too much). Its gonna be like Drake, Drake, 2pm 2pm, Minjun lol ....

1.) Douse Wasureru Darou by Junho of 2pm
             -This song is so relaxing... Junho can be chill. Its Japanese.

Junho of 2pm

2.)비가와 (Rainy or rain is falling) by 2pm
          -Another chill song this is from the Go Crazy album, Taecyeon wrote/produced it.

3.) Go Crazy (Korean Version) by 2pm
         -Title track for 2pm’s 4th album, written/produced by Jun. K, it wasn’t my fave but its catchy af,  I appreciate it now lol.

4.)Go Crazy (Japanese version) by 2pm
         -Yeah that happened... I have 2 versions but there are like 25... Jun. K remixes like R.Kelly.

5.)No Music No Life by Jun. K (Featuring AI)
        -Jun. K is interesting when it comes to producing and writing, but he does what he wants and talks about what it important to him... I could see him wanting to name his child Music, just like Ray J named his baby melody.

6.) 있는 그대로 (As It Is) by LEL (Featuring Jun. K)
      -LEL is one of the homies he works with Jun. K all the time, especially on Jun. K’s albums or on 2pm’s like Jun. K actually shouts him out on a track. This particular song is very The Jacksons though check it out.

7.) Guilty Love by 2pm (Japanese track)
     - From their 2pm of 2pm album... the MV is HOT.... I dig the choreography

8.) Look What You’ve Done by Drake
       -From Drake’s Take Care album... sounds like Drake was a spoiled brat that would have temper tantrums from time to time... but this was dedicated to his grandmother who had passed in 2012, and I don’t listen to it very often because he used a message from her on the track and I get that grandparent bond so its kind of sad.

9.) Finesse by Drake
   -I rarely listen to this track from the Scorpion album, it comes on tonight and I am like OMG cause like the first line is: I want my baby to have your eyes... (I thought Jun. K though LOL)

10.) Until the End of Time by Justin Timberlake (Featuring Beyonce)
     -So this past summer I was working on a fanfic and I decided it needed a soundtrack and I put this song on that soundtrack. I feel like it my favorite fanfic written by me... but you know really it’s just the best until I write the next one LOL anyway this song came out in what?? 2006 (Black folks always liked the Beyonce version 😂)

I recommend you try one of these songs. Especially the MVs if they are available, like Guilty love has like 1-3 versions I think.  I feel like Until the End of Time is nostalgic. That Junho track is really sweet and I am not gonna lie I don’t know what he is saying but its so relaxing. His album  Souzou  Is   awesome. 10 of all 300 hundred songs is one like a skim of it though.... and HONESTLY no SERIOUSLY I talk about 2pm and Drake BUT my love of music is so deep, I am telling you right now... I can go from Judy Garland to Earth Wind and Fire to New Edition to The Spice Girls, toKim Hyun Joong to Mariah Carey to  Dru Hill to Michael Jackson (and low key all that alternative rock or like Emo rock I can probably groove to)