Why are we obsessed with “paradise”? Or maybe it’s just me. At an age that I really didn’t need to I saw the movie Return to the Blue Lagoon. Not the famous Brooke Shields Blue Lagoon, but the sequel. Both movies are about children who end up on a deserted island and grow up unaware and uneducated about many things. Ignorance is bliss as they must and do survive living in paradise (without indoor plumbing). They also fall in love, have sex and make a baby on this island with no one but themselves. For whatever reason these sort of situations intrigue me. Probably because I can’t imagine 1.) going off the grid and 2.) no indoor plumbing. QUITE HONESTLY I think of female issues immediately because GOD knows it is every woman’s fear to be in a situation without out bathrooms and the necessary products to be clean.
YET... we or at least me... I have a fascination with being in “paradise.” Is it the mundane of our daily lives that makes us want to give it all up and live on a beach forever, where the weather is always usually beautiful and warm? Or maybe it is because it happens to be winter and I am going through my “seasonal” depression.... IDK BUT after watching Leonardo DiCaprio’s The Beach at the age of 36 (opposed to 26 and 16) I don’t even know how someone would want to stay on a beach forever. Obviously #beachlife comes with its own set of issues.
I would get tired of sand and grit. I would miss soft textures like fleece, fur and pillows. Sand and Salt water makes for a great exfoliant, but like every day? IDK. Also I can’t with make shift shelters like on Gillian’s Island. I mean look at them they were doing alright on the island and they wanted to get back home badly. I know that as far as people are concerned I don’t think I would really need them. LOL! If basic needs are met, such as food and shelter. (Few cans of bug spray) then I will be ok alone or with very minimum people. Seriously though the killer... the super killer... no WIFI. In this day and age is it possible to be in a place so remote there is no WIFI. I am sure places like that exist but my friends what good is a beach without sharing it on instagram. I am sure most of us don’t want to be all “cast away” complete with “Wilson.” When most people think of paradise they are are living their best lives in luxury. We want to forget the stress of life and “paradise” helps until we go back. I guess that is why movies like The Beach are interesting because these people really didn’t want to go back. If its an environment you grow up in then there is nothing else that you even know, but if you know the woes of the world then maybe you don’t want to leave. Me... I usually miss my bed and my stuff. I even miss my routine, like work and teaching. BUT there is always something in me that hopes to one day... go to some far off beautiful place maybe even with a dude I like or love or acquired in the hopes of going to a far of place. It still intrigues me... What far off place of paradise would you like to visit?
Success???? What is it? How do you measure it?
OMG that is such a teacher question. You can measure success IF you have created a goal. For example: “I will write a blog each day over the course of the month.” That means my outcome should be 30 (or 31) days of blogs. If I write 20/30 then I was only 66% successful. (This was really some teacher type stuff OMG why can’t I be regular). Unfortunately I don’t have a goal that I can measure like that. I mean the past decade I did earn my masters in special education, became a teacher, became an AKA and met practically all of the power rangers and there is a way to measure that, but how about I talk about something that other people can’t really see and some people have trouble handling...
People have trouble accepting who they are as a person. People have trouble accepting themselves because “society” says you are to be a certain way. For many years I was called weird or different. I mean a few kids in school, even friends, some family always made comments like I was the different one. I talked about this in another blog. I am saying I have been successful in accepting my “different.” When people friend or foe say: “you are different” or “You are so weird” or “why are you like that?” It makes you start to wonder too, like WHY AM I LIKE THIS? I think the biggest battle is the “your obsessed” comment. I am sure I have blogged about this as well, because yeah I am obsessed. That word had such a negative connotation and literally to this everytime that I hear someone describe me with that word I cringe a little. I mean don’t we use obsessed when we are talking about people who stalk and kill people. There was a WHOLE movie called Obsessed that about a woman who had become Obsessed with a married man to the point of stalking and trying to kill. And also lying about the whole thing. And someone once told me the better word would be passionate, I find that word to be a little disturbing as well as it tied to lust and sexual feelings. (Not to say that...)
When I like something, well really I love it. I mean if you want to get technical I talk about work a lot. I like my profession, enough that I enjoy certain professional developments, I like team meetings, when something is offered I most usually accept it, I never fuss when A child of a different grade level is placed in my class, I for real enjoy the challenge of figuring kids out. I like learning about how to better myself as a teacher and I don’t care which principal says I am “highly effective” or plainly “effective” there is alway room for growth. I “obsess” about whether I am doing/making the right choices for my students as I love them as they are mine for 8hrs 5days a week (most weeks). I ponder about how I can improve the well-being of my students at odd times. I was just telling my mom I have to stop myself from messaging people at late hours because they are probably sleep and at home chilling. No one will call this weird I guess because its for a selfless situation. BUT...
Oh Sweet Baby Jesus...
YOU LOVE AND TALK ABOUT THAT KOREAN STUFF TOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!! WHAT IS UP WITH THAT!!!
Yeah man... I love Jun. K. Yeah man... I have written a few fanfics with him in it. Yeah man I can identify Jun. K by his eyes and teeth... like don’t you wish someone loved you that much??? No? And yeah maybe its a lot... but it is what it is... I didn’t say to myself, oh imma watch this video until I memorize his molars, I just happened to notice that he has some dental imperfections. Who doesn’t? But that is besides the point. I have my other infatuations... I have had them all my life and its not just like Jun. K and Power Rangers and Michael Jackson and Marques Houston, its small little things, like all music. I often surprise people because I know Perry Como and Cole Porter, and I went through a Dorothy Dandridge phase. When I was a kid I watched Beauty and the Beast so much I can recite the movie to this day. That’s my only Disney favorite. I actually love clothes or maybe its the textures and the colors, when I was kid I use to hug dresses that were sequined, and I fantasized about the day I would be able to wear dresses like that and now I do. If I can’t figure something out I work on it until I do. I also know random trivia facts. Like at one point I thought trying out for Jeopardy, but I am more like Jeopardy Junior/College genius lol. There are other interests, I just happen to have several pictures and posters of Jun. K as well as his solo albums on display, I have all of 2pms albums also on display. I buy Jun. K merch and I have no Regrets because these things I speak about have brought way too much joy.
So... I am cool with this person... because honestly I am not sure what I would do without these “Obsessions” I feel like I would be a dull person. AND yes I bring this particular topic up quite a bit and that is for two reasons.
1.) It affected me deeply. I mean even my mom had a lot of trouble understanding me as a kid (And she really probably was just tired of hearing me talk all day about one particular subject especially one that means nothing to her like Michael Jackson).
2.) There are people who struggle with serious issues, regarding sexuality and other thoughts and feeling that are very difficult to bring up and discuss because they were shot down everytime they tried to discuss it, and they never get to fully live the life they want because they are scared to expose their life.
I want people to be free. I don’t want people to be tormented by there own thoughts and the opinions of others when people should just “live ya life.”
Its a tough road because you have to de-program your brain from thinking you are bad to know that you are awesome.
I now know I am awesome because I am weird, obsessed, passionate, intense, a nerd, a geek, and whatever else has been said so I am able to say I am successful in believing in my awesomeness (I have to be my own hype man)
PS: I know way too many fangirls who don’t tell their families don’t tell their friends, their fangirling is like living a double life all because people act like its crazy or something. Don’t hide girls (or boys) love your bias HARD (or soft)
First I finished the 30 Day Challenge so click if you want to check that out and I did a Decade review too!
We are now living in 2020!!!
2020 ... Perfect Vision... We can only try. In the mean time I am ready to continue living my life. I have travel plans, but they are all within the USA. I am very fortunate to be able to travel with my line sisters to Florida in January. We are celebrating 5 years of being women of Alpha Kappa Alpha. Its also like a week before my BDay so I am counting it as a birthday celebration too. Then in March I will be traveling to Connecticut for NARC (The North Atlantic Regional Conference) this is a sorority trip again. I am excited. I feel like I learn so much, not just for the Sorority, but to also use in my life. I look forward to it, I have never been to Connecticut. Unfortunately, its going to be cold. Next will be BOULE in July. This is when members of Alpha Kappa Alpha from all chapters, all over the world join together. You don’t just learn about being in the sorority, but you meet other “sisters” and let’s be honest the MERCH!!! What girl doesn’t love to shop. That trip will be in Philly which is super close. LASTLY (well so far) MORPHICON!!!! Back in Pasadena. What is Morphicon? A Power Ranger convention. It’s going to be hilarious because my brain is going to be wired in PINK and GREEN, but after Morphicon I will legit be the PINK ranger for the rest of the Year.
Unfortunately those trips aren’t my DREAM destinations, BUT I think I will list the places that are and maybe sometime I can put a plan in place to travel to my dream destinations.
1.) South Korea
I am not even going to act like this isn’t stop number one. Sometimes I get down on myself because its like do you really want to see South Korea or do you want to see Jun. K? How about both... I was once inspired by a picture of a black women at the Gyeongbok Palace.
At the end of the day I need to just go and get it out of my system (as if it would suddenly be out of my heart). I also left this wide open because sure the Palace is in Seoul, but I will HAVE to take a train to Busan, and I have to see Jeju.
2.) Japan
Originally Japan was the spot I had to get to, I mean there is a museum dedicated to Super Sentai and Mask Man. I need that kind of a place in my life. BUT then 2pm taught me about Okinawa, which is so beautiful. It seems like if I am going to see Jun. K it will be in concert and more than likely that concert is going to be in Japan. So LET’S GO!!!
3.) Philippines
So if my plan with Jun. K doesn’t work then its off the the Philippines to get a 90 day fiancé. I am slightly serious. I could appreciate a nice Filipino gentleman.
4. Thailand
I really Really REALLY wanted to go to Thailand, but I feel like its a bit saturated... in other words it has become the Cancun Spring Break of travel. They are really keen on tourism tho and I mean its beautiful there so I can’t knock it, but it also looks like the trip I need to take with a spouse or a significant other. So I guess after I bag Jun. K he will need to take me to Thailand, so we can stay at Nichkhun’s house (OMG his home is gorgeous). Even Jun. K might say, I’ve been there can we go somewhere else... and then I would say do you mean...
5. New Caledonia
Sweet Baby Jesus ‘Boys Over Flowers’ left the biggest impression on me. When they traveled to New Caledonia I LOST IT!!! I don’t even know where it’s located on the globe (and I have looked but never remember) but every now and then just to feel cultured and rich I ask Alexa: “What’s the weather in New Caledonia?” To me that should be the new trendy trip. I don’t know why no one has caught on to this one. Or maybe this one is played out and I am the one who doesn’t know LOL!!
So Basically I want the Tour of Asia Special. Now if I were RICH RICH I would grab Kass, fly to Turkey grab Eylul and we would hit those spots together... I am 100% sure we would get stuck in Seoul and by stuck I mean arrested.
Summer of 2010 my confidence was way up there LOL! I was 26 and felt golden... I had just start to get myself together after 2007-2009 of get healthy after my ileostomy and reversal. Summer is always my time!. I ended up getting a job as a para during the school year.
2011:
In 2011 the Danielle’s got together... good times... AND I enrolled in the Special Ed Masters program at Wilmington University.
2012:
2012 was the start of meeting my goals to meet the Power Rangers... 2012 was also when I met Tony Ray... ❤️
2013:
2013 I continued into the power ranger lifestyle I did my student teaching and I graduated with my masters!!!
2014:
2014: Official Teacher Official AKA Offical Girlfriend Official fangirl
2015:
Yeah sums it up LOL
2016:
The Danielle’s got together for class of 2006 reunion oh and DAMN LOOK AT MINJUNNIE!!!
2017:
So I became an unofficial bridesmaid and officially single in 2017, and Minjun hurt himself....
2018:
In 2018 Minjun left for the Army and I became a SUPER Fangirl LOL still a teacher by the way...
So I am supposed to discuss what makes me different from other people... I feel like I should have interviewed people and asked them. I don’t know how I am different but I know that I am. For a long time i thought that different was also a negative. Different implied that I was weird or not normal like everyone else. Odd even. WHICH is the ULTIMATE insult because I love all things even. It took such a long time from me to fall in love the unique that I am. First I had to recognize that my mom didn’t actually think I was weird, but she had trouble understanding my different. We talk about it all, we talk about my obsessions or as I like to call them “passions”. She also gives me credit because my different has taken me far. Like my comic con life.
I also had to recognize that so many people that I thought we haters (and were actual haters) weren’t dissing me because I was actually “weird” but they were haters cause they want to have the same gall to do some of the things that I do.
Finally, I had to learn that different doesn’t equal weird. I am me... I am me... Dani D. She can be the teacher, the koreaboo, cosplayer, singer, let the good times roll, never mind I’m gonna just stay home. I think people just aren’t ready for how deep I can take certain topics. BUT I will NEVER forget what my friend said to me one night...
I apologized to him for talking his ear off about Jun.K and his response was: “But that’s just you.” He almost seemed as if he was saying it just wouldn’t be me to be any other way and that he accepted me for it.
THATS a friend!!! Shout out to NICO!!!
So what makes me different? I love hard... MY passion is strong... If we are real friends I would give you my heart... if you pretend to be my friend I know you are pretending but I will still love you. My imagination is ridiculous, like Barney ridiculous without drugs or alcohol. Whatever I am involved in I put my heart into it... which is why I actually gave a damn about school, band and other extracurricular. I don’t like to be f***ed over which is why I haven’t “settled.” We could go 10 years without speaking but if/when I reach out its like time never passed. My love never changed. I care about people who wronged me and I care for people who have loved me. I ignore the terrible things in the world because it would send me to a depression because I once believe in Michael Jackson’s dream to heal the world. I try to always have well wishes for everyone. I work my ass off in whatever I do and don’t usually seek reward or expect recognition. I often have to hold myself back from over helping. There are so many times I am thinking of something that relates to a problem a friend or co-worker might be dealing with and I have to stop myself from texting them at like 12 am.
Is that the kind of different you expected? Do you believe it? Do you disagree? Have I been mean? Yes. I have a tendency to get pissed when I feel like I am repeating myself or giving the same advice to the same problem and eventually I will snap and tell you how I really feel no sugar coating. Now I am careful when speaking to others because some people need sugar coating. I LOVE Jun. K and I would tell him to his face that he is pitchy and that wasn’t the right note. I could say to him easily: “No I don’t like that hairstyle.” Or plainly stop acting like a little boy and stand up for yourself live your life Minjunnie!!!!
BUT honestly I can’t take it. The same treatment in return. If someone gives me a back handed ass compliment or says they don’t like something about it me... it hurts I internalize it and try to fix it. I will withdraw and meditate on what I’ve done. I got a bad review as a teacher once... you might as well had killed me... but I bet YOU I have only had HIGHLY EFFECTIVE after that review even if the person wasn’t eh “qualified” to review me in such a way I can never be at the point again. A friend read one of my stories and was super critical and it was like a wrecking ball to my ego. Like what do you mean. After pouting I re-read the story over and over, until I one realized it was my story and two I only had to take some of the criticism seriously and forget the rest. He was right about some technical stuff, but his thought would have changed the whole story.
Its a struggle because for so many years I was made to feel like I needed to stop being me to appease the world, but do you know how hard it is to be half of yourself. Its like you aren’t even living. I am so glad that’s all over. I mean I tone it down for people who can’t handle me, but I don’t turn Dani off anymore.
PS: I blame everything on being an AQUARIUS...every part of me is JUST like an AQUARIUS.
Dani D. started probably in my junior year of high school and carried on to college. I added Princess of Delaware to it because at the time there were like 3 students at Howard that admitted to being from Delaware. I wanted to stand out and sound as if I were “cool”. I used it as my stage name for the school radio. Unfortunately I was never really “cool” LOL. Regardless, I liked it and kept it. Through out the internet I use Princessofde as my “handle” (screen name). True story...if I were to ever be a rapper or singer (like really??) I would use Dani D. the Princess of DE. I would use Dani D. as my pin name. There are no special stories about this nickname I am sorry. BUT...
I have another name that an aunt gave me and she would often use... and there is a better story.
When I was born, I was sick and so was my mom technically. So DAFB hospital shipped me via helicopter to Andrews Airforce Base Hospital to help me out. My mom unfortunately was in the hospital in Dover. My aunt went to Andrews to see me and exclaimed that I was a red head. This is funny because its not the typical red like an Irish woman or something, but brownish. From then on my aunt started calling me Strawberry Shortcake.
Actually I do have a Princess of DE story... remember a few blogs back I mentioned a time I had been in the hospital? Well, I was in the hospital so long at Christiana that the nurses were referring to me as Princess, even though I had a Strawberry Shortcake blanket with me... speaking of... where is my blanket? 🤔
The challenge given was “Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why.” My mind went to the movies Freaky Friday and Vice Versa. In these movies the kids mind swapped bodies with parents and parents switched with kids. That’s kind of strange and the point was to get both parties to see both view points, cause the reality is parents do not always see things from their kid’s perspective and kids definitely can’t see their parent’s point of view. But this is for the day and its not necessarily to learn a lesson. Honestly I want to switch for selfish reasons. It should be obvious who I need to be for a day...
Whoever Jun. K calls his girlfriend OR whoever Drake calls his girlfriend or in his case “casual” friend. I don’t know Jun.K’s girlfriend although there have been some guesses... 😡, but we (the world) has been told that Drake’s current “friend” is Kylie Jenner. Not that I want to be in that Kardashian klan BUT I want to see Toronto and Drake’s mansion and his airplane. Not even gonna lie it all might sound basic but I do.
You think maybe I should be someone who could help change the world. Like be a White House “whistle blower” and help with the impeachment garbage. Listen broski blew the whistle on himself... and the republicans are still out here like this is a “witch-hunt.” So no... I need to be selfish and see how I am going to transfer $100K from Kylie wait is she a billionaire? Ok like $300K from Kylie and like $300K from Drake and they can call charity and I will call it a gift. Then I would pay everything off, like the dreaded student loans, and any other debt I have accrued cause I am dumb and this house of OURS. Wait let’s not be crazy cause the government would be like, where did you get this money and I am not trying to deal with all that so what I would do is pay lump sums but not off completely, right pay lump sums like every so often. But in the mean time I am going to go to Korea and find the one I really love. Jun. K. LOL!!! Every scheme leads me to Jun. K. That is probably not a good look though.
Wait... let me explain this a little more clearly.... let’s bullet point....
First “freaky Friday” into Kylie Jenner
Second go to her bank and transfer funds into Princessofde’s bank account
Third holla at Drake like: ”you trying to come to Cali or can I come see you” (Imma say it seductively) you know me I would be like: “Aubrey bring your airplane and pick me up” (I just want to fly in this plane) I imagine myself like this on the phone being seductive like:
So once in Toronto I might YOLO because I only have 24hrs to be Kylie and I wasted almost 5 hours flying to Toronto, well he would be on the plane with me so... yeah um it’s Kylie’s body right? Mile High Club LMAO!!!!!
Now I am in Toronto like: “OMG, $300K of mine disappeared!!! Like real OH WOE IS ME, right I mean Kylie is a billionaire so any intelligent person would be like: “B**** um obviously you learned how to grow money on trees.” So I gotta play to his heartstrings like, *fake Jenner tears* OMG 😱 I am so a$$ out right now, how did this happen, what am I going to do? **side note: Obviously if I need $600K I could just have Kylie gift it to my account, but why wipe her out when Drake has a whole airplane and is not broke and needs to be a philanthropist too. Plus I kind of just want to see how whipped he can be**
So now Drake gives me this money and shows me Toronto and then I gotta get back to LA or DE before the clock strikes midnight or something so I can body swap again.
I am not sure if I have to “fix” the money but that’s what gangsters do and I am indeed a gangster at this point LOL
Complete payment transactions
Plan a trip to Korea
Sit at the cafe until... “oops, 죄송합니다, (I’m sorry.) 안녕하세요 (hello)... I have bumped into Kim Minjun aka Jun. K and obviously we will fall in love.
LOL See a WHOLE plan to fall in love with the real bae and fix some other problems in my life LOL!!!!
Win Wins all around... Kylie and Drake can become philanthropist (giving to the “poor”) and Minjun can finally be happy in love... no more Mr. No Love.... Mr. In SO MUCH LOVE!!!! LOL with his YOUNG FOREVER GIRL!!!!
And then one night while Minjun and I are in bed about to fall asleep Minjun will say: “Man I would love to do a collaboration with Drake.... and my eyes will pop open like: 😳 It will be time for Freaky Friday: the sequel LMAO!!! Cause I would do it again and this time brainwash Drake so that the only thing he would be thinking about is collaborating with Jun. K. Or I could end up swapping with Drake LOL 😂 Hahahahaha haha!!!!
So I renamed the challenge. It really said Another Picture of yourself. First of all, why? I’m gross... second like again when was this challenge created. This person was running out of ideas... anyway I have two pics for your observations. LOL! (Also why is this the narcissist challenge LOL)
*WARNING* Pic number one is called: I Woke Up Like This.
We both look crazy, I was just “waking” up. I say it like that because I really wake up at 6:30am or so and literally lay in bed for hours (if its the weekend or a day off) My pup hates selfies so he was already over it.
Now here is a selfie that looks great (because its filtered) and my hair is fixed. That’s better right LOL!! Still not fully happy as I am either a work in progress or forever gross. But my hair stay on fleek. My stylist slays and my hair just be laid!
There you are more pics of me... what kind of content is this??? I mean unless you stan me (do you, I am accepting fans LOL). I am no one important. Just a single spec. ed. teacher or as I like to say Schoolmarm.
Can I tell you are secret? I want to try a dating site. I wonder why I feel it in spirit to date again? Maybe Jun. K is lowkey getting married and as Drake said: “LORD knows LORD knows” the devastation will be real (but for realz dating wouldn’t not stop that devastation)
Meh... I rather be devastated by Minjun’s whatever, than to go through the dating process.
I rather write a fanfic about dating a person. LOL!!! I don’t need more reality humans I need more reality dogs....
OK so the truth is the person I would date... is famous and younger... another person I would date is famous (not Drake or Minjun) and my age... any other person I would date lives in California, but aren’t “famous,” yet... LOL! I am about to date me and be free. (How did I even get to this...)
I don’t know when this challenge was created but, it said “put your iPod on shuffle and list the first 10 songs.” I am like I have never owned an iPod but, I can play the game lol I am just gonna use my phone which is a galaxy 7 lol (Adulting taught me upgrades cost too much). Its gonna be like Drake, Drake, 2pm 2pm, Minjun lol ....
1.) Douse Wasureru Darou by Junho of 2pm
-This song is so relaxing... Junho can be chill. Its Japanese.
Junho of 2pm
2.)비가와 (Rainy or rain is falling) by 2pm
-Another chill song this is from the Go Crazy album, Taecyeon wrote/produced it.
3.) Go Crazy (Korean Version) by 2pm
-Title track for 2pm’s 4th album, written/produced by Jun. K, it wasn’t my fave but its catchy af, I appreciate it now lol.
4.)Go Crazy (Japanese version) by 2pm
-Yeah that happened... I have 2 versions but there are like 25... Jun. K remixes like R.Kelly.
5.)No Music No Life by Jun. K (Featuring AI)
-Jun. K is interesting when it comes to producing and writing, but he does what he wants and talks about what it important to him... I could see him wanting to name his child Music, just like Ray J named his baby melody.
6.) 있는 그대로 (As It Is) by LEL (Featuring Jun. K)
-LEL is one of the homies he works with Jun. K all the time, especially on Jun. K’s albums or on 2pm’s like Jun. K actually shouts him out on a track. This particular song is very The Jacksons though check it out.
7.) Guilty Love by 2pm (Japanese track)
- From their 2pm of 2pm album... the MV is HOT.... I dig the choreography
8.) Look What You’ve Done by Drake
-From Drake’s Take Care album... sounds like Drake was a spoiled brat that would have temper tantrums from time to time... but this was dedicated to his grandmother who had passed in 2012, and I don’t listen to it very often because he used a message from her on the track and I get that grandparent bond so its kind of sad.
9.) Finesse by Drake
-I rarely listen to this track from the Scorpion album, it comes on tonight and I am like OMG cause like the first line is: I want my baby to have your eyes... (I thought Jun. K though LOL)
10.) Until the End of Time by Justin Timberlake (Featuring Beyonce)
-So this past summer I was working on a fanfic and I decided it needed a soundtrack and I put this song on that soundtrack. I feel like it my favorite fanfic written by me... but you know really it’s just the best until I write the next one LOL anyway this song came out in what?? 2006 (Black folks always liked the Beyonce version 😂)
I recommend you try one of these songs. Especially the MVs if they are available, like Guilty love has like 1-3 versions I think. I feel like Until the End of Time is nostalgic. That Junho track is really sweet and I am not gonna lie I don’t know what he is saying but its so relaxing. His album SouzouIs awesome. 10 of all 300 hundred songs is one like a skim of it though.... and HONESTLY no SERIOUSLY I talk about 2pm and Drake BUT my love of music is so deep, I am telling you right now... I can go from Judy Garland to Earth Wind and Fire to New Edition to The Spice Girls, toKim Hyun Joong to Mariah Carey to Dru Hill to Michael Jackson (and low key all that alternative rock or like Emo rock I can probably groove to)
OK so ya girl pulled a cop out... smh REALLY Day 14 said to post a pic of your family, and although I love my family, I just didn’t know what to say... and I didn’t want to post just the pic with a small blurb, so I went to Pinterest and looked up other 30 day challenges. I found a basic challenge and looked at number 14 LOL!!!! It said celebrity crush and I just about died. CAUSE everyone should know my celebrity crush.... OMG just the simple fact that I am on this topic is exciting. Not to say that my family isn’t but you know I share my family the way that I want to share my family and this wasn’t it. Not tonight at least.
SO CELEBRITY CRUSH!!!!!! You already know... but you know what here is my time to explain (as if I haven’t already) what it is about him in particular that turned me from someone who was just a Kdrama lover to a Jun.K lover. Formerly known as Kim Junsu of 2pm he changed his name to Kim Minjun (2012). Now you know when I say Minjun I am talking about Jun. K. (When I go on tangents on facebook, and I use Minjun instead of Jun. K I figure people think I am talking about two different people.)
I KNEW that if I got into Kpop it was over for me. I knew I needed to keep Kpop casual, because Kdrama had already become a great passion for me. Like I have made my mom a full fledge dramabean, I actually turned my co-worker into a dramabean, but curiosity killed the cat
right??? My gateway to KPOP... The Drama: Boys Over Flowers (currently on Netflix check it out... its a starter Drama). Kim Hyun Joong is the dude with the “red” (Auburn) hair color. He was the Second lead in this Drama. I really liked him more than the Lead (Lee Min Ho). When I really like something I look for more of it. (Here is where the cat was killed). Come to find out Kim Hyun Joong was really a Kpop artist. From a group called SS501(Double S 5-0-1). There was a time when Kim Hyun Joong was THE guy I was talking about all the time so much so I was in my garage teaching myself the dance to his song: Unbreakable. (I still know it.) I also watched his other dramas and learned all about SS501. Anyway Kim Hyun Joong was known as the “Korean statue” like that’s how “perfect” they thought him to be... until an ex came out talking about ”he abused me and caused me to miscarriage“ and all that type of crazy.... he kind of ended up in a web of dishonor and pulled one of those let me quietly enlist. Well you know Chris Brown said it best cause “these h*es ain’t loyal”... I mean I still appreciate Kim Hyun Joong’s work ((as I still appreciate Chris Brown’s (when its reasonable)) but between all the drama and the 2 years of enlistment I had to let it go.
All of this is happening in 2014 by the way... I distinctly remember 2pm was on the Go Crazy World Tour in THE USA and I was reading the articles like “oh cool a Kpop group is touring in the states, good for them” and basically a year later I was in love. Biggest regret is not going to see them when they were in the states. But that would have been a lot of money spent on something I didn’t even know or like...yet.
If you know me and you have paid attention to my antics than you already should know the songs that lead me to love 2pm. If you said ADTOY than you love me. ALL DAY I THINK OF YOU. Watch the video... I am going to put it right here... go ahead I’ll wait...
Its not the famous butt dance, or the fact that each member is sexy in his own special way... but at 3:14 the voice hit my WHOLE ear. In order to know the person with the voice I had to learn how to identify each member. I googled 2pm and said “no not him” five times, process of elimination. I found Jun. K. As the song At Last says: “then the spell was cast.” So honestly I started to like 2pm by default, I mean Jun. K has written and produced some of their songs so you gotta like the group. I specifically love him. Overall it started with his voice. I looked up his solo work and let me keep it real I wondered how a very black r&b voice came out of this Korean boy. OH to be a black person who loves Kpop... it makes you question your reasoning from time to time. You can say what you want the reality is Korea has appropriated the **** out of black culture (so has Japan but I really don’t have the time cause as usual Japan took it to another level) Korea tends to teeter between appreciation for black culture and/or black face (the “Its supposed to be a joke but its hurtful” kind) I am not blind nor dumb, I see it. Folks made a super ridiculous big deal about Kpop star Henry’s music video that featured Korean girls with cornrows, yet Koreans will do blackface faster than a drunk white American politician and be like shoulder shrugs. Apparently, Jun. K put on black American swagger so hard, band mate Junho thought he was American. I imagine Minjun’s reply was like: “Nah I’m from Daegu.” And Junho’s face is:
This took a turn didn’t it.
MAY BE I am bias, but to me Minjun is soulful, in other words he has said: (paraphasing) “When I wrote the song “With You” I was listening to a lot of Motown and the Jackson 5, so that sound influenced me.” For your listening and viewing pleasure: With You.
I view Jun. K as an overall artist because this dude wrote a song called: “ Mary Poppins” and proceeds to dance with an umbrella you know cause that’s what Mary Poppins has with her and that big bag.
This guy did a music video for his “Love Letter” track and dressed as Charlie Chaplin in the music video. His music videos always have an underlying artistic metaphor. In other words he is ahead of his time. (And No Shadows is one of the best metaphorical MV in his catalogue). And then there was the time he found trap music.... You know usually you have an artist and like you kind of know what to expect because they are in a particular genre, with a particular sound. Jun. K was like nah, I want to sound like Gene Kelly, in a trap house at Motown, with the Perry Como band behind me and give it a Christmas feel. DON’T BELIEVE ME???
The point is I feel like I can bring Jun. K to the barbecue and the debutante ball. He is going to impress everyone with his rendition of “You and I” by Stevie Wonder who inspired him to make music.
His voice is amazing to me (even if I can tell when his pitch is off or when he makes mistakes) and as any woman would I noticed other things
about him that are nice as well...
Keeping it real, this is only the tip of the iceberg when it comes to my appreciation for Jun. K. The fact of the matter is I let things get out of control once I was single. (Is Jun. K the rebound that never got away?) I don’t know if any of this makes sense... but I hope you walk away knowing that Jun. K is my celebrity crush or as we say in the kpop world he is my ultimate bias. I am a Hottest, (2pm’s fan base name.) Someone said: “You’re not a hottest if you only love one member.” I do love my 6, but can I keep it real, I would have NEVER even researched 2pm if I had never heard Jun.K’s voice. BUT I wonder if he would still have been my bias if I started from the debut of 2pm considering he had NO lyrics and very minimum ad libs.
Poor “Junsu” and his undocumented lyrics or lack thereof. I am glad to have found 2pm when I did and I am happy to be at 30 days to go until Jun. K’s enlistment is complete. I really hope he spent his free time writing songs so he can come out and drop like 10 solos during the 400 some days that Chansung and Junho have left until 2pm can be WHOLE again. Ok not 10 that is excessive, but like 2-3... please. LOL! (And maybe another musical, drama or movie.) No pressure.
I stan Jun. K to pieces.
Me and my Jun. K merch...
1.) Phone case 2.) No Love Hate 3.) No Shadow Tour Tee) 4.) Pan. K school girl tee 5.) No Shadow Tour Hoodie
