This is not an average blog for me, considering my dad reads at times, as does other family members. Sometimes you have to be 28-yrs-old. I’ll go back to being 13 in just a moment. Honestly I am not sure what put this in my mind as I was walking to the corner store. Maybe it was because of all of my daily insecurities that I simply play off. Playing them off doesn’t help that much while getting your groove on though and can play a role in your mentality which can play a role in the physical, which can “rueen” libido. You know what they say it’s not what’s between your legs it’s what’s between your ears. Insecurities that can occur during that intimate moment are as follows:
Seriously can you? There are so many females that deal with this problem on a regular. Unless we are talking about one A-cup and one C-cup, I think you can stop thinking about this…he’s not noticing this…and once you get this off you mind your hormones can start their engines and maybe when blood starts to flow your boobies will become engorges and ending your problem in the moment.(If your boobs are drastically different seek advice from your Doc)
2.)Am I sexy enough?
If he doesn’t think this now then why are about to do the do with this dude? If you are questioning yourself about being sexy at that moment, you probably shouldn’t be having sex, especially if you are under 25 and virginal (the frontal lobe of the brain isn’t completely developed until 25 {which is way I can even write this right now}). If you are a part of the over 25 none virginal crowd, then we need to re-assess the value ourselves!!! (If you are a virgin God Bless you). First of all, no one and by no one I mean the dude, is not thinking about being sexy. Sex is not sexy. (It’s downright gross when you think of it biologically).Cut this out of your thinking , as a matter of fact you have to start thinking about how DAMN sexy you are and how Romeo Santos (please see video) , Channing Tatum, or whoever is your cup of tea are damn sexy….LOLZ
3.)Do I smell ok, i.e. down there?
Hey, I’m just saying….hopefully if you showered and you’ve got that, love spell, pure seduction, or strawberry champagne going then you should be good otherwise you need to see a doctor. For just in case situations carry summer’s eve cleansing cloths, they are packaged individually. To make it sexy why not put out the “hey let’s take a shower together” thing…it will work, because he probably stinks too (men have peculiar odors). He’s not going to say anything anyway until he gets with his boys, [I’ve heard the stories from the fellas] (unless he’s your husband and gives a damn he might want to make sure you are ok since he lives with you and that....).
4.)OMG I can’t believe I am doing this or why am I doing this?
If you are thinking this stop immediately, because you bursting in tears before or after is only going to freak him and cause for more anxiety. Work things out with yourself before partaking of sexual activity. BTW you don’t have to be a virgin to have such feelings….
5.)Does he like this?
Yes. Shut up!Sounds like you and your boo need some dialogue. Yeah I know they can be such d**ks but it is what it is.
Overall, I hope that the relationship that us women put ourselves though is worth all of the anxieties, if not let that be a learning experience and move on. Get right with yourself meaning fall in love with yourself (not with a vibrator that’s not the same thing) Know who you are and love that person. You have to be able to do this before you can move on to a relationship involving another person and especially before you can make it sexual. It’s difficult because a women can come up with a reason for why they are not up to par in a minute, but you have to let that “I’m so ugly, sh*t” go. Even if that hottie at the Sunglass, kiosk in the mall took a double take at you and the reaction was almost as if he wanted to say “never mind” and rueened your shopping experience for the night because you thought you was looking alright!” Oh wait I’m back. Overall let’s love us before we love them, because once you love them…SMH….
Drake's lyrics fit as a title but this song started the thoughts that created this post...
Prince Royce, Chris Brown, Bruno Mars, Romeo Santos, The-Dream, Robin Thicke and even Usher (and every now and then Drake turns me on, call a guilty pleasure) have all been helping to fill the void of being relationshipless.
So glad that's figuratively. (LOLZ)
What makes me even bring this up...well I have had some extra time to walk the dog (my bro has been doing it all winter and it caught up with me) meaning extra time with the music on my phone which includes the crooners mentioned above. “Our First Time” by Bruno Mars shuffled its way to my ear and sent me back to ghosts of boyfriends past. Just the good times on my mind, who wants to remember the bad, I actually try to block out the bad if any at all. I guess the bad is only the naivety of myself, thinking in terms of together forever, when in my logical sub conscious I knew it would be more like 6 months if that...(except that one in college I'm not sure what to say about that).
I have now been single for what like 1 year and 6 months-2years (technically LOLZ, I can also pretend like the summer of 2010 never happened but then I really wouldn't have anything to reminisce about now would I HA!) I am not sure if my single-ness is self -imposed or divinity at its best. I am almost blind to the opposite sex (No that does not mean I can see the same sex) My life has been work all day, class every other night, and the weekends; well more work and homework to boot. Off course every other Saturday I've been hitting up a Latino night at a local saloon.One of the "ghosts” told me in order to meet people I should go to the bar, where I would supposedly meet people. He didn’t specify that I should meet people who speak English. (LMAO!)
Overall all work and no play makes Dani a dull chica. I have so much on my brain a boyfriend wouldn’t fit. You know when I analyze my past “mistakes” one was that I happened to focus a lot of time and attention to my male counterpart.What do I have to show for it now? Let’s See: Kanye West’s “Late Registration” emblazon in my mind forwards and backwards, a lovely pink dress, a movie favorite “Demolition Man”, a recipe for Ro*tel, an appreciation for cooking, bats, and aroma warming oils, salt n pepper shakers, reggaeton, Boricua Pride (wait what?) cranberry and peach schnapps.Could be worst though like a few Jr.’s. I mean Brandolynn is not the best name for a girl. (LOLZ).
I think I said something like this before but I could go for a little love in life, I mean I think I just want those first 3 months of awesome “If this isn’t love, then what it is” feelings. After that you can have it. I can be over it. I mean I really can’t believe this. No love in high school- sure no one had any idea of my full potential; college single- sure I was never one to put myself out there like that to be seen and noticed for attention I mean I have but not to that extent, but N.O. L.O.V.E. for me now?
I guess, well I tell you what I have to look forward to….Prince Royce’s new album in April (Pre-ordered) Chris Brown’s new album (about to pre-order) out in May ( I like his bad boy ignorant “bully” image too much), The Dream’s new album and in the mean- time Romeo Santos, es muy sexy, hablo espanol para tu papi.
Overall, I will let the sweet words written by some of the best artist to help me be in love all by myself. I never really needed a counterpart anyway. I have been alone even when I was surrounded by many because I play my own tune. I have never been on the same path as others anyway. I spent 8 years without a little brother and then we were so far apart in age and in personality I was still an only child. But if I ever met one of the mention singers then I would drop everything LOLZ!!!!
PS: Probably really not ready for any of the such… I put so much effort in everything else it’s hard to imagine a relationship and that is the truth.
PSS: waiting to see if I accomplished the next goal.
I worry about wrinkles, they say black don’t crack but he I am light skinned and I afraid I will be looking like the cript keeper soon. 
