Drake's lyrics fit as a title but this song started the thoughts that created this post...
Prince Royce, Chris Brown, Bruno Mars, Romeo Santos, The-Dream, Robin Thicke and even Usher (and every now and then Drake turns me on, call a guilty pleasure) have all been helping to fill the void of being relationshipless.
So glad that's figuratively. (LOLZ)
What makes me even bring this up...well I have had some extra time to walk the dog (my bro has been doing it all winter and it caught up with me) meaning extra time with the music on my phone which includes the crooners mentioned above. “Our First Time” by Bruno Mars shuffled its way to my ear and sent me back to ghosts of boyfriends past. Just the good times on my mind, who wants to remember the bad, I actually try to block out the bad if any at all. I guess the bad is only the naivety of myself, thinking in terms of together forever, when in my logical sub conscious I knew it would be more like 6 months if that...(except that one in college I'm not sure what to say about that).
I have now been single for what like 1 year and 6 months-2years (technically LOLZ, I can also pretend like the summer of 2010 never happened but then I really wouldn't have anything to reminisce about now would I HA!) I am not sure if my single-ness is self -imposed or divinity at its best. I am almost blind to the opposite sex (No that does not mean I can see the same sex) My life has been work all day, class every other night, and the weekends; well more work and homework to boot. Off course every other Saturday I've been hitting up a Latino night at a local saloon. One of the "ghosts” told me in order to meet people I should go to the bar, where I would supposedly meet people. He didn’t specify that I should meet people who speak English. (LMAO!)
Overall all work and no play makes Dani a dull chica. I have so much on my brain a boyfriend wouldn’t fit. You know when I analyze my past “mistakes” one was that I happened to focus a lot of time and attention to my male counterpart. What do I have to show for it now? Let’s See: Kanye West’s “Late Registration” emblazon in my mind forwards and backwards, a lovely pink dress, a movie favorite “Demolition Man”, a recipe for Ro*tel, an appreciation for cooking, bats, and aroma warming oils, salt n pepper shakers, reggaeton, Boricua Pride (wait what?) cranberry and peach schnapps. Could be worst though like a few Jr.’s. I mean Brandolynn is not the best name for a girl. (LOLZ).
I think I said something like this before but I could go for a little love in life, I mean I think I just want those first 3 months of awesome “If this isn’t love, then what it is” feelings. After that you can have it. I can be over it. I mean I really can’t believe this. No love in high school- sure no one had any idea of my full potential; college single- sure I was never one to put myself out there like that to be seen and noticed for attention I mean I have but not to that extent, but N.O. L.O.V.E. for me now?
I guess, well I tell you what I have to look forward to….Prince Royce’s new album in April (Pre-ordered) Chris Brown’s new album (about to pre-order) out in May ( I like his bad boy ignorant “bully” image too much), The Dream’s new album and in the mean- time Romeo Santos, es muy sexy, hablo espanol para tu papi.
Overall, I will let the sweet words written by some of the best artist to help me be in love all by myself. I never really needed a counterpart anyway. I have been alone even when I was surrounded by many because I play my own tune. I have never been on the same path as others anyway. I spent 8 years without a little brother and then we were so far apart in age and in personality I was still an only child. But if I ever met one of the mention singers then I would drop everything LOLZ!!!!
PS: Probably really not ready for any of the such… I put so much effort in everything else it’s hard to imagine a relationship and that is the truth.
PSS: waiting to see if I accomplished the next goal.
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