Summer of 2010 my confidence was way up there LOL! I was 26 and felt golden... I had just start to get myself together after 2007-2009 of get healthy after my ileostomy and reversal. Summer is always my time!. I ended up getting a job as a para during the school year.
2011:
In 2011 the Danielle’s got together... good times... AND I enrolled in the Special Ed Masters program at Wilmington University.
2012:
2012 was the start of meeting my goals to meet the Power Rangers... 2012 was also when I met Tony Ray... ❤️
2013:
2013 I continued into the power ranger lifestyle I did my student teaching and I graduated with my masters!!!
2014:
2014: Official Teacher Official AKA Offical Girlfriend Official fangirl
2015:
Yeah sums it up LOL
2016:
The Danielle’s got together for class of 2006 reunion oh and DAMN LOOK AT MINJUNNIE!!!
2017:
So I became an unofficial bridesmaid and officially single in 2017, and Minjun hurt himself....
2018:
In 2018 Minjun left for the Army and I became a SUPER Fangirl LOL still a teacher by the way...
Ok so I didn’t keep up with this very well at all. I slipped up and the month is almost over. I have 8 days left of the challenge. Since it is about to be 2020 I was thinking I will just go ahead and knock the whole challenge out in one shot... here we go!!!
Day 23: Something you crave
Ice... so apparently I was/am anemic and the symptom of that was the desire to chew/eat ice regularly. I had to have ice by 9am and continued thru the day. It was really bad, but since treating the anemia that desire is almost gone. I say almost because there are times that my brain says you should get ice but its not strong enough for me to actually get the ice. BUT I love having popsicles (Banana flavored) and I prefer ice water, and very cold drinks. I use getting sick and having a fever as my excuse to get banana pops 😂.
Day 24: Three Books on the Shelf
Ok So The Rap Year book is very informative my brother actually skimmed it and went through songs listed for each year and I sang or rapped a part of about 95% of the songs. He isn’t into rap so it was a cool bonding moment.
The Great Gatsby is probably one of my favorite stories, I think I read it at least twice and I have watched both the 1974 version and Leo and Toby version. I love both. I think its safe to say this is my all time favorite “adult” story. (Even though I read it in high school) (My favorite kid book is Witches by Roald Dahl and Hatchet by Gary Paulsen)
Ok now JUN.K the books below are called “making books”. Basically these are picture books that show how he prepared for his albums. The first one on the left is the making book for his first Japanese album “Love and Hate” in the book you will find behind the scenes pics of his photo shoots or concert practice. The middle is his making book for his 2nd Japanese album Love Letter. And the last is the making book for his album No Shadow ( which is BY FAR the SEXIEST for reasons...nipples).
Day 25: What’s in your bag?
So I don’t always carry a purse or bag but when I do more than likely you are going to find my IPad, lipstick/gloss, and my giant planner. If I have a small bag then just make up and debit/credit cards. I use to have like 100 pens/highlighters/markers/colored pencils/ but I have stopped carry those things which is dumb because I almost always need a pen.
Day 26: What do you think of your friends?
Kass and Danielle: Hot Mamas Literally
Eylul: Genius Beauty (You can do anything just do it babe)
Rachel: Kingpin the Godmotha (Big pimping working crazy remember to take it easy)
Tonya: Warrior and Ear Lover (I will never get over that fact)
Alise: Spiritual Kpop Nurse (keep going)
Megan P.: The Calm to my Hype... silent busy bee... doing stuff and not being boastful... Lowkey mom
Tony Ray: Classy Lewd Gentleman/activist (fight the power naked)
D. Coney: 1:1 My Guy (in a Denzel voice)
Jazmin: Quiet wise beyond her years... a blessing
Tao: Globetrotter Bear and by globe I mean Seattle to China
Jess: My school girl... Masters... Doctorate!!! I will always be here to support and indulge in that Taeckay lifestyle
Please get at me if you feel like you should be on this list... but these are the people I talk to either everyday or our relationship goes back several years to 10 years back maybe more....
Day 27: Why did you want to do this challenge?
I was trying to revitalize this blog overall. I get a little disappointed because even with the amount of followers I have on instagram I am not really getting views, but I guess blogs are kind of played, but I think that the vlog business is starting to get a little saturated in other words everyone wants to be a vlogger and don’t get me wrong if you can produce bomb content then keep going I mean I have some FAVORITES like Chris Cantada Force PLUS I know how much production goes into vlogging, like its not just recording off your phone and uploading, I mean most are using their phones but there is editing and other concerns... I having been around videographers and Chris I see the work and money they have to put into it because they have to have equipment. They also have a niche and quite honestly my niche is me. LOL... well that and Positivity.
Day 28: this year/ last year pics and compare
Ok we sit on the cusp of 2020 but here are December 2018 and December 2019. Difference I have a weave in 2018 (looking to do that again actually) but my real hair continues to flourish. I continue to have dark circles that can be seen EVEN with filters. I continue to love black eyeliner and the color gray. 2018 and 2019 Dani loves Jun. K I am not sure which loves him more... I have a droopy eye... 😞 FML its only gonna get worst as I age.
Day 29: What have you learned over the month?
I failed at this challenge. It is very difficult for me to keep good habits because it is easier to be lazy. So I guess I need to write up some kind of routine and work on developing better habits.
Day 30: Favorite song...
This anti climatic, like all this philosophical stuff and we end with favorite song... well I guess I can be philosophical here too LOL. First I have to figure out which artist I want to draw from. There are several artists that have made an impact on my life....
2pm: Again and again (preferably the ballad version)
Jun. K (from 2pm): Think about you
Drake: Shot for Me
Michael Jackson: Another Part of Me
Marques Houston: How You Just Gon
Mariah Carey: Lover Boy
And what is ironic or iconic or crazy about these artists, the decade that is about to end was eventful for each, 2pm debuted in 2008 but I found them at the end of 2014 and was around for 3 Korean Comebacks and 3 Japanese comebacks.
2pm gives us Jun. K and I have been there for his solo records and have waited through his 2 years of mandatory service in ROKA.
Drake “debuted” in 2009 and was already on the radar, but that fandom crept up on me suddenly I am listening to him and Jun. K back to back (you can kinda blame Jun. K, but I was with Aubrey during those Degrassi days)
Michael Jackson: died in 2009 (every time I remember this fact it happens to me all over again) but in 2014 they released some never released music and of course they tried to re-kill him and his legacy in 2019...say what you want I won’t let Michael go....
Marques Houston: Has been an artist since 1993... his last two releases were 2010’s Mattress Music and 2014’s Famous. Even though he is into producing and directing movies, I can’t let this dude go....
Mariah: the best... do I even need to say anything... people try to say she is not hitting all those notes and the truth is there are times that it is like she needed a little more tea and honey and less wine but she still ended up with 19 #1s before the decade ended... what she did was made herself the Queen of Christmas...
BUT...
My favorite song is: ADTOY
WHY??? Its how I found 2pm/Jun. K and right now Jun. K is everything... that is just the reality of my life right now LOL!!! This song written by the great JYP is a classic and in a sleek/classic yet modern way expresses who they are as 2pm... beastly, sexy, performers giving us fierce and manly. With rap and VOCALS... Minjun kills period....
OK the Challenge is over are you ready for the next??? LOL!
So I am supposed to discuss what makes me different from other people... I feel like I should have interviewed people and asked them. I don’t know how I am different but I know that I am. For a long time i thought that different was also a negative. Different implied that I was weird or not normal like everyone else. Odd even. WHICH is the ULTIMATE insult because I love all things even. It took such a long time from me to fall in love the unique that I am. First I had to recognize that my mom didn’t actually think I was weird, but she had trouble understanding my different. We talk about it all, we talk about my obsessions or as I like to call them “passions”. She also gives me credit because my different has taken me far. Like my comic con life.
I also had to recognize that so many people that I thought we haters (and were actual haters) weren’t dissing me because I was actually “weird” but they were haters cause they want to have the same gall to do some of the things that I do.
Finally, I had to learn that different doesn’t equal weird. I am me... I am me... Dani D. She can be the teacher, the koreaboo, cosplayer, singer, let the good times roll, never mind I’m gonna just stay home. I think people just aren’t ready for how deep I can take certain topics. BUT I will NEVER forget what my friend said to me one night...
I apologized to him for talking his ear off about Jun.K and his response was: “But that’s just you.” He almost seemed as if he was saying it just wouldn’t be me to be any other way and that he accepted me for it.
THATS a friend!!! Shout out to NICO!!!
So what makes me different? I love hard... MY passion is strong... If we are real friends I would give you my heart... if you pretend to be my friend I know you are pretending but I will still love you. My imagination is ridiculous, like Barney ridiculous without drugs or alcohol. Whatever I am involved in I put my heart into it... which is why I actually gave a damn about school, band and other extracurricular. I don’t like to be f***ed over which is why I haven’t “settled.” We could go 10 years without speaking but if/when I reach out its like time never passed. My love never changed. I care about people who wronged me and I care for people who have loved me. I ignore the terrible things in the world because it would send me to a depression because I once believe in Michael Jackson’s dream to heal the world. I try to always have well wishes for everyone. I work my ass off in whatever I do and don’t usually seek reward or expect recognition. I often have to hold myself back from over helping. There are so many times I am thinking of something that relates to a problem a friend or co-worker might be dealing with and I have to stop myself from texting them at like 12 am.
Is that the kind of different you expected? Do you believe it? Do you disagree? Have I been mean? Yes. I have a tendency to get pissed when I feel like I am repeating myself or giving the same advice to the same problem and eventually I will snap and tell you how I really feel no sugar coating. Now I am careful when speaking to others because some people need sugar coating. I LOVE Jun. K and I would tell him to his face that he is pitchy and that wasn’t the right note. I could say to him easily: “No I don’t like that hairstyle.” Or plainly stop acting like a little boy and stand up for yourself live your life Minjunnie!!!!
BUT honestly I can’t take it. The same treatment in return. If someone gives me a back handed ass compliment or says they don’t like something about it me... it hurts I internalize it and try to fix it. I will withdraw and meditate on what I’ve done. I got a bad review as a teacher once... you might as well had killed me... but I bet YOU I have only had HIGHLY EFFECTIVE after that review even if the person wasn’t eh “qualified” to review me in such a way I can never be at the point again. A friend read one of my stories and was super critical and it was like a wrecking ball to my ego. Like what do you mean. After pouting I re-read the story over and over, until I one realized it was my story and two I only had to take some of the criticism seriously and forget the rest. He was right about some technical stuff, but his thought would have changed the whole story.
Its a struggle because for so many years I was made to feel like I needed to stop being me to appease the world, but do you know how hard it is to be half of yourself. Its like you aren’t even living. I am so glad that’s all over. I mean I tone it down for people who can’t handle me, but I don’t turn Dani off anymore.
PS: I blame everything on being an AQUARIUS...every part of me is JUST like an AQUARIUS.
OMG I have had this blog on edit for like 3 weeks so its safe to say I fail at 30 day challenges BUT it is also safe to say I don’t give up either...
Cosplay or Fanfic, that is the question?
Pure pleasure come from both. It’s difficult for me to put it into words, but I feel happy and well sometimes pain in both, but the outcome is usually a very happy feeling. I don’t really get to do these things that often. Sometimes I cosplay my fanfic characters. SOoooo truthfully my fanfic main character is in my mind me and I often use my name or something close to my name when I am writing because putting myself in the story is what makes writing become my escape. I get two different “happys” from cosplay and fanfic.
First for my “normies” that aren’t so sure what cosplay means... is basically the word costume and play meshed, meaning dressing in costume as a particular character and at times being in character. So acting as that character as well.
With cosplay I get a rush... it starts with nervousness and it ends with me feeling proud that I pulled it off. To me there are two different cosplay styles. There are original outfits and then there are full on costumes. Now I will be honest my outfits and cosplays have been to my affordability. I am the pink ranger, but a Ranger Suit is close to $1000 plus (for a good one). I can’t... and I guess I am not ready for that sort of commitment. (But if you have a suit and want me to rock it, I will.) And if you are a true cosplay artist you really want your cosplay to have character continuity, in other words look authentic af. Anyway “original” cosplay outfits to me are like:
This is just one of the “mighty fine” power ranger tank dresses that I added a few accessories to in order to make it my own. I think its pretty cool and I think it made a great impression on fans and the actors.
Another example:
I call this one Jun. K’s School Girl Fangirl as the Panda is his animal. There is a lot to explain here but 2pm fans already know Pan. K is Jun. K.
Ok so the truth is I do what is called “civilian cosplay” again I don’t own a suit so I copy an iconic outfit like:
This is the pink ranger outfit from the 1995 Power Rangers Movie. I tried to match it completely.
This is the pink ranger from Power Rangers Dino Charge, I felt that the outfit from the first episode was memorable enough, but I also have a pink energem and Dino Charge Morpher.
This is the outfit from the 2017 Power Ranger Movie.
Above are my interpretation of Joe Gibken also known as the Gokai Blue and Luka Millfy also known as Gokai yellow. These are characters from the Super Sentai universe. I really had a good time with these two as well. I enjoyed being Joe cause that was a gender bender and I ran into a couple of dudes at a comic- con who weren’t sure and that’s great because I nailed it then. *insert cheesy grin*
My most recent cosplay went into the X-men Universe. I really enjoyed X-men the animated series and my FAVORITE character is Rogue, she is sexy and sassy, but Jubilation Lee is cute and fun. I went for it... One side is my summer Jubilee look and the other side is my winter Jubilee look. It was funny because a friend asked me if I was going to cut my hair for the look and I was like ”NAH” I figure I don’t want to buy a trash wig, but something I could live with and wear later. So I basically transformer Jubilee from an Asian American Mutant to an African American Mutant with a natural curly look. In cosplay race doesn’t/shouldn’t really matter (no black face please but by all means paint yourself blue, purple, or green if need, but you don’t have to be brown to be Storm Karen).
Jubilee has probably been as exciting as my 1995 Power Rangers the Movie Kimberly. So many people shout out Jubilee and compliment the cosplay. A dude even stopped dead in his tracks and said: “I love you, I love you, I love you.” And that is the joy I am talking about because when you do your cosplay right you are going to do one of two things or both: You will love that you brought the character to life and/or you bring a character to life for someone. My cosplay is definitely Jubilee the animated character/comic book character and not the movie character. This is the Jubilee people remember (because the movies don’t give a storyline anyway). I can honestly say I made a fantasy come to life.
Now Fanfic... (enters Marques Houston, Jun. K and Drake)
First I have been writing fanfic since the sixth grade. AND most people who knew me back then know those stories were all about Marques Houston and me and yes there were some “freaky” aspects... which was apparently the most ridiculous or crazy thing a 6th grader could ever write about, which I am not sure how that is so crazy when in 100% of all the fanfics I wrote Marq and myself we seriously dating or married and therefore freaky ish is bound to happen... to me it was art but whatever it helped me get through my teen years without having issues aside from failing algebra in 9th grade. I found that I had less and less time to write fanfics as life progressed and now I usually start one in the summer months. Currently, I am DELIGHTED to have Jun. K be my current inspiration (and Drake). ODDLY enough I DON’T usually share my fanfics. WHY? Cause everyone is a critic. I don’t need you to tell me my grammar is off or that I spelled something wrong or there was a typo. For me I just need to get the s*** out of my head. For almost a year I visualized Drake sitting in a dark room smoking a cigar, in a room filled with people dancing, yet he was staring at me, Dani, who is dancing with her man, Minjun. That’s when things get crazy....
This is the digital cover for that Drake and Minjun story. I enjoyed it so much, but I know that it takes a turn because Drake... well he is a second male lead and... well a KDrama bean would know... the point is I got it out of my head and called it: When Toronto Came for Seoul I have an opinion of my story that I can’t share because it would give away major details and spoil it. I also love to read good fanfic... there was this one called: “Shadows Behind You” and it was so good I have read it twice. Its a Junbros Shipper’s dream. My friend was working on a fic called: “Clawing at Ice” and its a Taeckay shipper’s dream. (Ask me what that means later if you want to know.) Now during Winter Break I am stepping out of my comfort zone and writing a Khunkay, Khunwoo drama. I am excited and I hope Hottests enjoy.
Anyway if you couldn’t tell these things make me happy as I am enjoying talking about them and could go on and on...
YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME!!!! I mean currently I have zero love interest... well I have “interest” but I honestly think the probability of an actual situation ship/relationship/etc is doubtful so I will save you the words and do exactly what you and I both know is who I truly could see myself with in the future...enjoy.
I hope this clarifies any remaining questions.... LOL!!! OH and all credit to the photo people who like took the pics or edited them. Not my pics just saying....
