Clearing up the birthday blues before it even starts

So someone says: "few weeks until our birthdays," "DAMN my birthday I forgot!"
And I really wish I had not of been reminded. 29... and I don't have much to show for it...ok Bachelors and Masters great nice sheets of paper to put on my wall...and who can I blame? No one... Its my fault I am not a go getter and have a touch of gutlessness...
BUT HOPEFULLY...
I will meet more of the former power rangers (I mean YES its what I live for at the moment Rangers and Cake you got any???) which will strike a few more goals off the the list....AND HERE...

 ...another thing I wanted to do and although it is short and sweet and probably a verse from a song that anybody can sing, but at least I posted it randomly, I mean I attempted to post it on Facebook, but it didn't work so just when I was about to be like ok never mind I remembered the End of 20's/Before I'm 30 goal list. Posting a video of me singing was one of the goals...maybe I will show more of my vocals later and maybe I won't.... 

 In the HOURS it is taking me to compose this blog (because I was trying to upload the video the "easy way" through Google + but turns out the easy was to plug my phone into the computer and upload it from the computer smh) I came up with what I have to show for it aside from my papers that say this person is smart enough to go through college twice...
all my crap and this is just one closet...shoes in boxes, but what you don't see is the shoe rack on the left and the five other boxes of boots on the right and four pair in the floor...and you can see the left side that is filled with pants...my crap makes me happy (and sad when it is all over the place) and my ties, there are more downstairs in which I was sharing with my brother...I know its an odd thing for a girl to collect and wear but look at how awesome it looks: 

 Also there is this one this mentioned in the Bible, Jesus actually says it: (Get ready cause Jesus had a lot to say about this)

Matthew 6:25-34Amplified Bible (AMP)

²⁵ Therefore I tell you, stop being ^[a]perpetually uneasy (anxious and worried) about your life, what you shall eat or what you shall drink; or about your body, what you shall put on. Is not life greater [in quality] than food, and the body [far above and more excellent] than clothing?²⁶ Look at the birds of the air; they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father keeps feeding them. Are you not worth much more than they?²⁷ And who of you by worrying and being anxious can add one unit of measure (cubit) to his stature or to the span of his life?²⁸ And why should you be anxious about clothes? Consider the lilies of the field and learn thoroughly how they grow; they neither toil nor spin.²⁹ Yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his magnificence (excellence, dignity, and grace) was not arrayed like one of these.³⁰ But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and green and tomorrow is tossed into the furnace, will He not much more surely clothe you, O you of little faith?³¹ Therefore do not worry and be anxious, saying, What are we going to have to eat? or, What are we going to have to drink? or, What are we going to have to wear?³² For the Gentiles (heathen) wish for and crave and diligently seek all these things, and your heavenly Father knows well that you need them all.³³ But seek (aim at and strive after) first of all His kingdom and His righteousness (His way of doing and being right), and then all these things taken together will be given you besides.³⁴ So do not worry or be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will have worries and anxieties of its own. Sufficient for each day is its own trouble.
^{And the reason I mention this is because I will be kind of broke and I haven't been broke since 2009....in 2010 financially I started doing better than before, I was subbing and library, full-time and library, then even part-time and library, but now I am back to library, because of student teaching. And even though I know I will be alright sometimes it is difficult to keep yourself from worrying about things like lunch for everyday, monthly bills, gas, food expense, etc. The thing is when I was only doing the library gig I was still making it as far the above, and my closet looks like it can carry me through the rest of my time student teaching. (GEESH like the $100 I awe the school so they can give my my piece of paper that says masters) But I will survive as I have survived throughout my life since I was born from "Meconium aspiration syndrome" at birth to an ileostomy to now....and this in 2009:} 

^{Who says I'm not going to have crab legs and a Glass of Moscato this year for 29? You know how I do...Party by my lonesome! SMH!}

^{PS: If this blog doesn't do anything, by the end of it I always end feeling positive....}