Random a year later...The dream wedding that got away....

Once upon a time I was about 10 years old and my mom was a maid of honor in a friends wedding. I was a junior bridesmaid.  My mom actually helped this and other weddings and has a bride's plan book. I would often look at that book especially as a pre-teen, when I was planning my wedding with Marques Houston. Marques and I were married several times btw. Once during the winter actually for some reason the winter one is stuck in my memory. I guess because many of the stories began with us already being married. Moving on... 


As I got older my wedding morphed with the relationship... such as the Howard U wedding.... the military wedding.... yeah... *crickets*

A few years have since passed. Marques is engaged to some chick name Marlena (its been a really long engagement and I am just like so when are y'all gonna *in my lil kim voice* "do the damn thing?") Relationships have come an gone and Danielle or as I like to refer to myself,  Miss Daniels (its a teacher joke, the kids can't pronounce my name and I don't correct them) has grown ALOT. Like ALOT ALOT.... 

One of my favorite things to do was dream/fantasize about love, families, "hearts, Stars, and Horseshoes, Clovers and Blue Moons, Pots of Gold and Rainbows, and Red Balloons...they're magically delicious!"  My wedding was a big part of that, but at some point through the process of personal growth and near death experiences I was just like...No....

I haven't thought about my wedding in years. I mean I have thought about the dress, I always thought I wanted the mermaid style, but sometimes I want a pretty pretty princess gown. I have always adored a princess cut diamond but now I am liking that emerald cut. I thought I wanted to be married on a beach, but my backyard isn't looking so bad. 

That tiara tho.... First wedding be like...

This isn't some sort of strange engagement announcement.

But questions and ideas have been brought to my attention. And I just find it completely crazy that this chick who has married Marq at least 5 times (in my head) has no idea what my wedding should look like.... and maybe it's because it's not a for sure thing...its just let's talk out of our a$$es momentarily. 

I actually find it to be sad. Most people became bridezillas I am just like maybe I should put it in my mom's hands when the time comes. ("Indy, Big mistake.") 

I guess I also use to be rich in my stories so there's the biggest difference. How I wish I could say money is no object... hahaha I only feel that way in a  Forever 21. 

Saving money, is probably a good idea...I also had no idea plates of food were so expensive, like why? My mom has been saying lately you should have a small wedding...which I would really like to know how one with large families and lots of friends can accomplish? Ppl gotta eat...and its a grip... smh.... 

Second wedding be like...

Being that its (engagement, parties, bridal shower, weddings, reception) in the horizon of the future I guess I can find that book my mom bought  oh so many years ago and try to remember one of the weddings I had with Marques.....

PS:  Pinterest just makes it worst. 
PSS: Mariah Carey was a guest for me and Marq you think she can make it to the Ryan and Danielle wedding...how does that work?